Why cant I just give up?! Seriously, will my life ever change?!?! I am SCARED of money, bills, impending bills such as fixing broken struts on the car ($750-800), medical bills and prescriptions (up to $200/mo. for T at discount, $100 for pdoc, just spent about $150 tonight for prescriptions). There is so much more. Work and life stresses me so I react by losing weight. Even that is stressing me now because so many people are starting to notice and comment on my weight loss. I have to deny it. What am I supposed to say--explain to them that I have an eating disorder?
It is storming really bad here right now. I am sitting in my car hoping for an early end to this. The wind is blowing so hard right now, my car is moving and rocking. This really doesnt feel safe. I would give anything for a weather alert radio tonight, let alone a home with a basement instead of living in my car.
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My life and being formerly homeless
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