Soooo anxious, soooo scared!

Oh it's so awful being scared. Scared of things that I know I shouldn't be scared about. I reallly hate that. When I'm totally freaking out and inside of my head I am telling myself that what I'm scared of isn't true but my body and emotions are saying, "I'm terrified." Makes me jolly angry. Anxiety just wrecks my days, I have stuff planned and then it all ends up being spoiled by the way I feel. Absolutely scared stiff! Just hate that feeling...it's with me now.

A familiar feeling for me too.

I wish I could say something to whip the feeling away - but we all know I can't. Breath deep though, rest a while. The things you planned can wait.

I am sorry you are so scared. Gentle thoughts are with you.

Hi Estee,

Sounds like you are having a rough time just now. Maybe it feels like it will never go away.

I've been in that place. I thought it was hopeless.

I believe that,slowly but surely, we can get better at walking through the fear. Some famous person said, "When we are going through hell, the best thing to do is to keep walking."

I know this advice isn't a cure, but it has helped me, and I was a bad case.

Good thoughts, M

Hi Estee,
I just recently started having anxiety attacks and I also get so scared of the silliest things. I sometimes wonder how I'm even going to make it through an hour, let alone a day.

I just recently started taking Wellbutrin, and I do know, haven known for years that I've suffered from depression. I know I also have SAD. But the anxiety attacks just started and the total freaking out scaredness (is that a word?!). I don't know what to tell you to help you, but you do have company.

If anyone else can share some thoughts, I don't want to be like this forever. I'm 44 and it's weird to just all of a sudden be afraid of life!

Dear Estee1,

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

We all understand where you are coming from... for many of us here have good days and then we have bad days.
May your GOOD DAYS multiply and may GOD BLESS YOU right now in the moment you are at.

LoVe,
Rhapsody -

Estee

I don't know you but I know your pain. Last week was tough for me and didn't think I was going to make it. Had to call in reinforcements. But today, I feel great! Who knows why or how and I'm not going to question it.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I agree with other posts here: we have good days and bad days. Survive the bad days using the tools you've developed (write them down for the bad days if you need to) and revel in the good days.

I hope your pain ends soon, really I do! The place you are in is no fun and it hurts and is confusing and just yucky!

Safe, Gentle Hugs, If okay,
Songbird

I know how you feel too hon. The scariness of being scared. It's horrible, but I will pray for you because God answers prayers even though it may not feel like he does sometimes, but he hears all. Matthews "whatever he shall ask for, believing he shall receive through Christ our Lord" Take care and things will get better.

I love God heaps but sometimes I feel like it's my fault that I am in such a bad way. I dunno. God never leaves us anyways. Even though I feel like He's moved planets. Like how could he live with me? But he is still here. Wow. I love that quote..."When you are going through hell, keep going!" It's a good one. I'll have to remember that when life is too much...like today.

I just had this discussion with T three weeks ago. I know God is there but He doesn't see me. What did I do that was so wrong, why am I so unworthy? I since have been touched by the Spirit and can feel Him again. It was anhedonia blocking out all pleasure and feelings. A safety mechanism that comes when all is going wrong. I don't ask for it, it just happens.

Thank you for the good thoughts,
Songbird

I'm feeling so yuck tonight. I'm so worried about my work performance and what people think of me. I just want to give up at the moment. I'm so unhappy. Here it is, Friday night, and I'm sitting here all by myself because I have no friends to do anything with. Every friend I ever get I end up getting scared of anyway. They are never good enough and never right anyway. I don't deserve friends. Even if I had friends to do stuff with the stupid illness keeps me from doing anything. I feel bad no matter what I do. Always having to live up to all my rules and expectations and do's and don'ts. I'm sick of doing things that I don't even enjoy doing. Being places that I don't even want to be. All because of fear. It stinks. I'm alone and it's my fault because I am so dang indecisive and afraid. I've had a gut full of myself and I'm disgusted with who I am.
If anyone tells me off for being so negative....well all I can say is me sitting here saying this stuff is better than lying and acting like I'm not thinking this way. I am upset with my life. I feel like a failure. Feel pathetic. Like what's the point of trying and fighting anymore?I'm so tired and I've had enough. I'm sick of trying to please people. I'm sick of thinking that people are angry with me or that I'm not good enough. It's hell.
Yet tomorrow comes another day and I feel like nobody understands how I feel and nobody knows how hard everyday is. Just getting out of bed and doing simple things that other people do are like huge mountains that take me forever to climb. I'm exhausted from worrying, but I can't stop. I just wanna lay down and give up fighting. I want to hide from life. I feel as though I am missing something. Some vital ingredient that I need to get through life. That this vital ingredient wasn't given to me. I think it's just the whole coping thing. I feel like I can't cope. I have lost my fight. It's too hard.
Sorry for being so morbid but this is how I feel.

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Scared of things that I know I shouldn't be scared about. I reallly hate that. When I'm totally freaking out and inside of my head I am telling myself that what I'm scared of isn't true but my body and emotions are saying, "I'm terrified."

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I can so relate to this. I am so sorry. I wish I had that magic wond to help us all. For now, please try breathing excersizes. Focus on one thing. Try naming 5 things you can see, hear and feel and keep repeating that. Calming, nature CD's are a great, great way to help ease some of the anxiety. Good vibes being sent your way.

Estee

I'm sorry you're so scared. It's so unnerving and consuming and I hope it passes for you soon.

Songbird