i dont know what kind of personality disorder i have but it seems like i have trouble forgetting the past. i keep thinking of how people used to bully me when i was a kid and how i had gone through so much and how i had to pull myself out of it eventually. i had been through one therapist but she did not help at all. plus when an authoritative figure yells at me, i get upset. i have been through a lot and i don't know how i can handle it. i keep saying to myself that i will get revenge and that every person who's ever hurt me is going to face the consequences. but the thing is i dont want to hurt them; i just want them to acknowledge their guilt. but of course, people will not admit that they're guilty. i am just not ready to give up the past. i keep wanting to forget but i can't. and the thing that really kills me is that they have not been through what i had so i really want them to suffer.
i hate when older people scold me because it makes me feel as though i am worthy of being yelled at. i don't like it when people do that. i have had enough. and the world looks upon me as a menace of society.

[optimize990h]

heyitsme7, have you taken the psychological quizes that might point you in the right direction and then, if you able to, connect with a therapist who can diagnose the condition.

On the top of each page, you should find "Quizzes" just above "Social Groups" tab or icon.

The quizes will indicate what a therapist could eventually diagnose, but these quizzes are just guides.

I can't really diagnose too much from the information you have given. This is where a therapist is needed because the interview and assessment is important in giving a diagnosis. Sorry, I don't have a license to practice.

can you send me the link?

i apparently have a hard time getting along with people who are older than me, especially people who are much older. i believe that they are too overbearing. they think that just because they are older, they can control the rest of us young ones. i am tired of feeling like i'm being controlled by elders. i feel like my freedom is being restricted. i feel like i cannot respect them because of their strict personality. i hate myself. i hate feeling as though i am being controlled.
when i make one little mistake, people scold me and they do it for like minutes on end. then finally i have to step in and say something which then makes it worse because that person later just raises their voice at me and i feel like i have just made the situation much worse than it was before.

yeah i had a crazy night tonight. my mother came in to my room and opened up my closet. she noticed that a few sweaters and shirts were missing. i told her that it was in the cabinet in the other room and she said that there was not enough room for me so she had to put it in my room but i did not like what she did so i took it back and placed it in the cabinet where she originally had it in. now she's all upset with me because she thinks that i am not respecting her enough and now i'm just like oh my gosh what have i done? she kept asking me why i don't want those clothes and i'm like because i just don't and she's just like going on and on and finally i decided to just say something and that just started an argument for about like 5 minutes or so. i'm just like you know what? i am ready to move out. she is way too strict. she's been this way for years but of course i can't expect her to change. plus, i'm also a very careless guy sometimes and am more prone to mistakes more than ever.

i already got my answer. thanks.

[Open Eyes]

heyitsme7, why don't you take the PTSD test and see if that clicks with you. There is alot of anger and the other things you are discussing with PTSD resulting from bullying.

I can't diagnose you, all I can do is suggest you look into it.

OE