I don't even know where to post this.

I feel:

Useless, Disabled(not in a good way)Rotten, Depressed... Lost, Empty, Why-Botherish, Icky, Hidy, Untalented, Uncreative.. Just plain like ick.



I hate when I feel like this. I feel like I am spiralling

D

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again.

[nothemama8]

we're here and will catch ya
Angie

hi rainbow, i am sorry to hear about your bad day.

feelings like this are familiar to me too, so you certainly arent alone. try to accept your feelings with open arms, and comfort yourself. you arent useless, untalented uncreated etc, these thoughts are usually the ones that create the "why-botherish" mood and depressed and lost moods too. by re-assuring yourself that you do have talent and that you are a good person you can help to defeat the negativity.

do you have loved ones around you, such as a partner, or children, or parents or brothers and sisters etc. even friends will help you fight these feelings.

my suggestion to you is to find something you enjoy doing. it could be reading a book, watching a film, listening to music, going for a walk, running, swimming etc and do it often to feed the creative side to you. everyone has a creativity side to them, its part of what keeps us going. but by not stimulating it often enough you lose touch with it and feel you dont have it. the other negative feelings, liek the feeling of uselessness and talentless are all connected to that creativity and will go in due course, which subsiquently will help ease the feelings of depression etc.

i wish you all the best thorugh this, and feel free to let me know if you ever need anyone to talk to.

take care and speak soon

i second what angie said......we're here to break your fall. xoxo pat

Thanks lovies xoxox

The hugest problem i think for me is when I struggle with being creative. Being an artist of many talents, when I can't come up with ideas, I feel stagnant and it makes me depressed.

That on top of the fact that I can feel winter coming, and having just been fired again and the upcoming struggle with disability again (see, I told them it was too hard for me, my doctor told them it was too hard for me... but then again, if they listened that would make sense hee hee)

Simon, Excellent words. Thanks for giving me a reminding little boost as to what I have around me. I have been spending the day working on my website, and chatting on msn with friends. Had a hot bath, which helped my back to not be so sore.

you really hit on exactly what I am experincing simon. Well put. Actually helped me put it in perspective a bit. Sometimes I flounder with defining feelings.

Angie & Pat - Bless you both. I will be sure to remember the safety net of your friendship when/if things get worse.

[January]

(((((((((((( Rainbowz ))))))))))))

I hope you feel better very soon.

Hugs,

Jan

((((((((((Rainbowzz)))))))))