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Aug 14, 2006, 12:46 PM
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I first started therapy for depression because of a medical condtion that has disabled me. The very first time I saw my "t", immediately the topic of conversation became more about my childhood. "No, I didn't think i had been depressed all my life... quite the opposite actually..."
It seems as if I have been a "pretender" all my life. Pretending nothing was wrong.. pretending to be perfectly adjusted and "normal" whatever that means.... and I have pretended nothing bad happened to me.But I NEVER totally erased it from my memory banks.. its all stored there alright.. and now my memories are flooding me. I am overwhelmed. I am holding it together.. doing what I have always done.. avoiding it.Ignoring it.. or trying to. Originally going to therapy was supposed to help me get over the depression from my condition , as well as help me with being approved for a disability claim. It hasn't helped with either. In fact, I feel more depressed than when I started and I have anxiety pretty bad too. I feel like I have so much work to do.. and it affects my medical condition in a very bad way so it is slow going and I get very discouraged. There are time when I simply can't handle therapy although I haven't missed an appointment in a very long time. I seem to have quite a large amount of childhood baggage.. and I haven't even gotten started on the abusive relationship I was in for 3 years... thats a whole different set of luggage! Geez.. its hard to stay positive sometimes.... <font color="#880000"> </font>
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Aug 14, 2006, 01:04 PM
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 Better slow going than nothing at all.... hang in there. LoVe, Rhapsody - ((( hugs ))) |
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Aug 14, 2006, 02:31 PM
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Hang in there. It will get easier to talk about it, i promise.
(((faithisalive)))
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Aug 14, 2006, 03:51 PM
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Welcome
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Aug 14, 2006, 05:02 PM
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Hello, Faith...Yes, I know what you mean, and I too have handled my childhood baggage in small increments. I hope you are doing well with this as it is hard!
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Aug 14, 2006, 06:42 PM
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Hang in there, even on rough days. Force of will can also help on days when nothing looks good. On some days the only positive will be a flower you see by the side of the road or a sunrise. Helping others when you feel rotten makes them and you feel better. If I can make it, you can make it. Keep your hope alive.
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Aug 15, 2006, 08:12 PM
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Welcome FaithisAlive. I hope you can be patient with yourself and heal at the rate you are able. Take care.
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