I need to come clean about all the stuff that happened in my life, from day 1.

I have not been the friend that I should have to some of the people in my past.
I have not treated them with great respect.
I had great disrespect and contempt for those whom I did not like due to their appearance and attitude.
I did not want to be friends with certain people because I felt they were too arrogant for me.
I was bullied and I did not leave it alone.
I wasn't always the best person in life.
I need to stop being judgmental.
I need to change.
I don't know where I can write this as a diary or journal, so I'm just going to post here.

[nushi]

You're being judgmental against yourself, in fact :"(

You need to be passionate for yourself, most of the points you've written, I would've done myself, 'cause I think that what should be done actually ^_^

It's natural to have great disrespect & contempt for those who you didn't like due to their attitude (not appearance though)... Some people deserve to be disrespected, their attitude just call for it! #~#

It's natural to not wanna be friends with certain people 'cause you feel they were too arrogant for you; arrogance is a very bad attitude, you don't deserve to have arrogant people close to you, or else they'll push you to hate yourself even more than you sadly do now :"(

You were bullied & you had to act against this, & seek your teachers to help you stop bullies

Nobody's perfect, nobody's expected to be the best person in life! :$

Yes, you definitely need to stop being judgmental against your beautiful self ^_^

We all need to change, including me. My best quote is: You never fail until you stop trying heyitsme :*)

Hey, you're human!!!!! IMHO, at one point or another, if we are honest, we have all done those things.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by heyitsme7

I need to come clean about all the stuff that happened in my life, from day 1.

I have not been the friend that I should have to some of the people in my past.
I have not treated them with great respect.
I had great disrespect and contempt for those whom I did not like due to their appearance and attitude.
I did not want to be friends with certain people because I felt they were too arrogant for me.
I was bullied and I did not leave it alone.
I wasn't always the best person in life.
I need to stop being judgmental.
I need to change.
I don't know where I can write this as a diary or journal, so I'm just going to post here.

question...are you in a 12 step program that requires you to come clean about what you have done in your life...if so I think that rule is for when you have done something wrong to another and you need to go directly to that person that you feel you were not a good friend to, didnt respect, bullied.... unless of course you have done these things here ...in which case...

over all if you have done these things I say its great that you are making this effort. great job of putting what you felt you did wrong into words. I hope you feel better and are able to move forwards now.

Originally Posted by amandalouise

question...are you in a 12 step program that requires you to come clean about what you have done in your life...if so I think that rule is for when you have done something wrong to another and you need to go directly to that person that you feel you were not a good friend to, didnt respect, bullied.... unless of course you have done these things here ...in which case...

over all if you have done these things I say its great that you are making this effort. great job of putting what you felt you did wrong into words. I hope you feel better and are able to move forwards now.

Nope just some song that just popped in my head and my sharp memory of recalling the past.

[KathyM]

Originally Posted by heyitsme7

Nope just some song that just popped in my head and my sharp memory of recalling the past.

Still, they are your thoughts (now) - and you've taken the physical action to list them. Maybe it was your brain's way of giving you a "to do" list, things to work on as you travel through life. It's a solid list with plenty of things to consider. If it's just a song, maybe it was your brain inviting you to dance along. Either way, good luck with your homework and/or dance - and try to enjoy the experience.

Originally Posted by KathyM

Still, they are your thoughts (now) - and you've taken the physical action to list them. Maybe it was your brain's way of giving you a "to do" list, things to work on as you travel through life. It's a solid list with plenty of things to consider. If it's just a song, maybe it was your brain inviting you to dance along. Either way, good luck with your homework and/or dance - and try to enjoy the experience.

My brain was probably telling me to admit that you've been doing things wrong. Then a bunch of stuff started to flash by and I could remember all the bad stuff people used to say about me and the words that I used to, which wasn't very polite. I stooped to their level by picking on them back. I thought that it would change things, but it didn't.

I was saying to myself that the things that those people used to say it never gets back to them. Like people don't believe that their actions have consequences. They bullied me day after day and then when i couldn't stand it anymore, I was mad at one girl in particular who just said things like you are so poor you can't afford an aeropostale shirt or something. I was like well i shop at target and places like that and she still thought it was a low quality place. I can infer that she had been teased about her clothing and so she decided to just take it out on me. I don't know, maybe.

I'll bet they're making a bunch of friends while i'm just constantly judging people based on their appearances and not reaching out to them because I'm afraid that they may end up to be the kind who just acts like they know everything or they have everything or just hates my opinions and stuff. I've met people like this and i'm afraid that when i express my own views, these guys will scoff at me.

at times I just want to retrieve some of the memory from when I was younger so I can talk about it and I won't have to be stuck with it forever.

Hope you don't mind my talking a lot. Back in fourth grade, two kids whom I could not stand, said I talked a lot and never knew when to shut up. Now that I think about it, I guess they were just guys of few words and expect others to not explain everything to them.