[RedBarchetta]

Why post this here and now? - Don't ask - I honestly have no idea. But this has been the case as long as I can remember (on this matter anyway, that is way back at least to 4th grade.) and yes has made things difficult, and it times totally not possible for me, because I can't let up just a little for any reason it seems (not exactly 100% accurate 100% of the time, but pretty close).

I just seem to be totally obsessed with keeping everything as private as I can (well as far as connecting it to me in the real world, connected to a handle online is one thing, connected to me personally that is a totally different story).

I know tell T - well, actually that's one of the problems - see medical records, and piratically mental health records are no where near confidential enough for me. See I know I would be willing to go in to things a lot more if I knew for an absolute fact that there would be absolutely no situation where anyone other than treating health care professionals would ever know anything about it. But since that is not true (one example off the top is my head is just try to buy a weapon and not have that seen at all). I just can't help it, I really feel if it is for health reasons, than keep it there, if it MIGHT stray from that no matter why, I just would rather not bother. And if you tell me something like what's the big deal, nothing that would be a problem (at this point anyway that is true with most things) I will tell you, well if it's that little of a deal - then why bother - you just told me it doesn't make a differance anyway, so if that is true, then there is no point in giving you the information.

This also keeps me out of just about all public buildings (metal detectors=a search, that invades privetcy, and unless you have a specific reason to suspect a particular individual of something, it is plain wrong as far as I am concerned)

It just keeps going - funny thing, I honestly have no idea why it is THAT important to me, but it is, and has been as long as I can remember. And I know a lot of what really gets to me there, most people might agree I am technically correct they don't really mind it. Usually because it's not such a big deal and it makes them feel safer. That's the problem, I don't feel any safer, just as though you went through MY stuff without any reason to think anything was up., or MY health information when you are not doing anything where there is a HEALTHCARE related need for it

There, - but now what?
Really, not being sarcastic at all, what you make of that?

[healingme4me]

I would make of that....

Medical records and not being as confidential as we'd hope?! I get that! Not all office staff is as ethically bound, as we'd hope, right?! ((and I'd hope they get their day....for being like that, just sayin'............I could go on, about those that would be involved with them, too...))

And yeah...those public building searches...like a courthouse...some things are better left at home...as others can clearly see those screens, eh?

i do not recommend you keeping too many things private. I suggest you bring it out into the open because htat way you'll feel better. Unleash some of that burden off your shoulder. Nobody wants to carry that extra weight of problems with them. Tell us. Perhaps we can help you.

[RedBarchetta]

Originally Posted by healingme4me

I would make of that....

Medical records and not being as confidential as we'd hope?! I get that! Not all office staff is as ethically bound, as we'd hope, right?! ((and I'd hope they get their day....for being like that, just sayin'............I could go on, about those that would be involved with them, too...))

And yeah...those public building searches...like a courthouse...some things are better left at home...as others can clearly see those screens, eh?

That's the point, easy enough anyway, and NBD to most but me, I'll do stuff like not go to the hospital, and instead treat an injury myself, when I really could have used more than I could do myself, because they would have called the police (or at the time I thought anyway) because of the way it happened, so instead of allowing police to know of it, take care of it myself, and hope it's fine.
Also, instead of taking a chance, don't say much, especially when it comes to mental health issues - if you say nothing, nothing could be on any record.
And I just take the approach of avoiding the building.

Just the way it always has been....

[RedBarchetta]

Originally Posted by heyitsme7

i do not recommend you keeping too many things private. I suggest you bring it out into the open because htat way you'll feel better. Unleash some of that burden off your shoulder. Nobody wants to carry that extra weight of problems with them. Tell us. Perhaps we can help you.

I have a feeling that will come - not sure when....
At the moment I just don't get way it apparently is that important to me, and has been all that time......O.K. there is a lot of not abusive, but extremely screwy things I dealt with at home growing up; such as an alcoholic that was with my mother, but picked up some other woman, bought her back to my mothers house, WW3 broke out, and I played ref at 15 years old to all that....(O.K. that's one piece you got to the rest of the puzzle), but fails to answer the why - because that was after the obsession with keeping things private started..

BTW, it probably doesn't help, but might show a bit about my thinking..
Because of the situation, no it's not quite the same tone - but I has just in the ER the other day (digestive issue), and now on top of name bracelets (all the were using last time), they have an electronic tracking device....I would LOVE to build, or somehow obtain a battery operated device to mess with there system - and tell them I am in say 10 different places (on different floors) at the same time - LOL

[Perna]

The meaning of privacy to an individual is an individual thing. Consequently, our perception of how private/public we are is also just that, a perception. Some people are "out there" but don't know it and other people have no real need to worry but do anyway.

The way I deal with the privacy issue is to know myself and what I am "worried about". Then I take my worries and address them, rather than try to address the outside-of-me, whole world and try to make it keep from worrying me.

In your specific situation, where I you, I would borrow or save money and see a private therapist. A private therapist does not use insurance, does not interact with the insurance company, your work, your family, or anyone else, it's just you and the therapist. That's what I did.

If you are unwilling or unable to do that, I would learn and discuss everything I could about my own insurance and my own therapist situation with my therapist. I would teach myself not to look at the broad picture of what "could" or "could not" happen, of what may or may not happen to other people and just focus on myself and my situation.

I would also look at my individual life and the things I am afraid of disclosing and see how important or interesting they are likely to be to the rest of the world, who has other things interesting/important of their own and are really not paying much attention to me.

All things have two sides and the drawbacks of any situation are only half the picture. There are also benefits. I remember when I lived in a high rise apartment building alone and was worried about my apartment being broken into and my being murdered, raped, robbed, pillaged, etc. :-) But then I realized that there were at least 500-600 apartments and the chances of a random pick of mine was very tiny.

That's true in our society now too, the chance of some clerk somewhere reading the dry and coded information in your insurance records, knowing/caring who "you" are as an individual and taking the time to translate the service code and read the information about it, etc. and then being able to come to you and say, "You are depressed! For shame!" or something, is not very likely?

Even more clinical records, from a hospital stay (a psychotherapist does not share your session information with insurance, there's no need at all, they just have to confirm you are depressed, etc. and guess how long they will need to treat you, etc.; what happens in each session may/may not be kept by the therapist in their own records that are in their office/home, usually under lock and key -- look at how hard it was to get a particular person's records (Daniel Ellsberg's) from Dr. Fielding's offices for the Watergate scandal!) Why would you be that important to anyone else?

[RedBarchetta]

Except there are thing that are standard to do that - like I pointed out, what about purchasing a weapon, or if arrested (in that case I would want to know that still no one there knows anything, not even there doctors since I will only accept anything from my own - even medications, don't even try it, because yes I would refuse even the one that I need to digest any thing at all, unless no one there know about it - in other-words - insist on I don't hold them myself, and keep it at least as private as now - don't bother - say have it your way, your own doctor - I say plain cloths, at her office, no escort - or it's off.
Oh, and no tracking device either!