i had the wierdest dream a few nights ago that i cant seem to get out of my head since.

as many of you may know, i really want to be a singer/songwriter and i love music, and the way it makes me feel is out of this world. i get such a buzz from it and it has an unexplainable impact on me mentally. music is my life and its my passion, i want nothing else out of life except to be on stage singing to people. i go all shakey just thinking about it.

well a few nights ago i was led in bed and started to fall asleep. as i fell asleep i began to dream. try to picture this if you will...

i could see myself on the middle of a stage, i had a choir behind me on my right, and an orchestra/band behind me on my left. i began singing "Stand By Me", my favourite song of all time. and the stage went pitch black and the crowd in front of me went dead silent, not a single noise came from them. everything was dark except me, and i was stood at a microphone which was on its stand. the band behind was playing such a mellow, relaxing tune and the choir were humming quietly, the impact was immense, so powerful! i remember the feelings i had when i sang. i could feel all my heart and soul be poured into the song and the emotion was almost overflowng. being on that stage felt wonderful. i felt like that was where i belonged, almost like that was the moment i have worked so hard for in my life. i felt so happy and safe. i cant begin to understand the sense of "true happiness" i felt and it felt like i was home. thats a feeling i havent had for so many years.

then i woke up...

i actually nearly cried when i woke up. i felt as though my strong imagination was beyond me this time and i felt like it was a million miles away from me, and that i would never be on that stage. i want it so much but feel i am not good enough and dont deserve it for whatever reason. it made me sad, to be honest.

i felt so connected with myself in that dream and when i woke up i felt like a huge chunk of ME was ripped from me. but yet i felt positive and optimistic that one day i will be there. such a contrast in such a short space of time.

since then i have had the wierdest feelings. last night i was in bed and i felt happy, yet sad. safe, yet vulnerable. i felt i belonged, yet i felt i didnt belong here. excited about my future, yet scared. it is the wierdest feelings i have felt for a long time and it has had me baffled. i felt the extreme opposites of so many different emotions at the same time. i cant really explain it either, i cant find the words for it.

im just wondering whether what i dreamt that night was just a dream, or whether it was a preminition of things to come. i really dont know what to think. it just felt so real, every single second of it, all the emotions, senses etc. i know no one will have the answer to this, but i would love to hear your thoughts on this.

im hoping its a preminiton myself...

[Rhapsody]

IMO - I would say that it was your deep inner feelings coming to the surface as you slept.... of needing some one to "Stand by You" - to be on your side for once.


LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[TYMBERWOLV]

i think that this is a good thing this " Dream" I am very spiritual and get a different feeling from it .. If you say that you are going to be a singer and it is confirmed then this dream will become reality .. If you doubt yourself then you can allow the doubt and discouragement cloud your visions ..

My thing is believe that anything is possible even though others say it's not possible

Hope I helped

[JustAPixie]

Only you would know if the dream meant something. Usually whith premonitions and stuff I believe there is always confirmation of it...

[seeker1950]

Simon, sweet fella...I hope for you also that it is indeed a premonition of things to come.
I can so identify with your feelings about performing. I experienced that same high when I was younger, winning awards, getting accolades, and being in front of a huge audience who went hushed when I started to sing. It was my true love and aspiration, but I did not realize my dreams because of my insecurity. On one very real level, I think one must be "harder" than I was to "make it." You seem much like me in your sensitivity.
If I were to go back and relive that time now, I would go about it in a step-by-step businesslike manner. Whether yoiu are a songwriter(?) or just a singer, save your money to pay for studio recording time and make those demos!
Also, on spiritual level, send out the "energy" that you will accomplish your dream!
Patty

[radio_flyer]

[Flinty]

((((((((((Simon))))))))))))

I will be writing you a PM regarding this, but do not let this get you down my gorgeous friend!!



Flinty

[sammi]

I think dreams are sometimes things that we want the most. But just because it was a dream who says it can't be a reality... I think you can do anything you want Simon. Just follow your heart and i'm sure you'll get to that stage

[sabby]

What more powerful connection can you have than a dream that gives you the feeling of success??? To feel what it would be like to achieve your awake "dream" could be what you need to motivate you to work towards making it a reality. It's possible your sleep dream was readying you for the day when you are up on that stage belting out your favorite tune. The range of feelings you are having sounds completely normal for someone who is ready to work towards their dream......Where there is a strong will, there is a way!

[JustAPixie]

That is so true Sabau2!!!!!!!!1