[henrydavidtherobot]

I've been looking forward to a new healthier approach to my life. I now live alone and seeing who I thought was a wonderful man. Everything was wonderful at first. However, I can barely see my T, I don't have access to medication, good friends moved away, and I've been dealing with stress by drinking too much. The guy I was seeing has a girlfriend and hasn't told me, though we talk on a regular basis. He also came into town and didn't tell me. I'm incredibly hurt. I'm not working or going to school right now, so it's hard to get my mind off of things. I'm feeling so low and hating myself and I feel like I don't have the resources to stay on a healthy track. Does anyone have advice for me? I feel so out of control

[gayleggg]

Be glad you found out now about this guy. It's better so you can move on. I gather you are like me and have financial reasons for not seeing your T very often and not access to meds. I understand and am glad you are on PC and posting. It helps to get it out. Hope you feel better soon.
Gayle

[henrydavidtherobot]

My T is overbooked and my P only wants to put me on antidepressants (which I reacted horribly too) because my sister died of a drug overdose. It does really help.

[lizardlady]

Our circumstances are different, but I have similar feelings. Sorry, no words of wisdom. Just wanted to let you know you are not alone.

[Jacki~]

What is that saying......... One day at a time. But first, we have to support each other. Even with meds, a walk a day makes a difference. It does help me think more clearly. Be kind to yourself. Life is full of lessons. You are important. Keep writing. Whether here or in a journal.

[henrydavidtherobot]

Any advice for what to do when I'm alone at night. I can't go walk.

[gnat]

I've been stressed to an unbelievable degree over these past couple months and now my husband will be switching jobs which means I won't be seeing much of him. I dread the lonely nights ahead, especially when I am so anxious and depressed. I'm trying to come up with a way to occupy my time because I can't handle things getting worse.

For me I'm going to put more time into my kids, but sounds like you don't have them. I know I need to get exercise involved. For me I always take at least one fitness class a week. For the past 4 years it's been dancing. I plan to do some dancing when he was gone, even though I'll have to stay home and do it on my own.

In the past I've volunteered to help deal with my stress. It feels good to help others out. Again I can't do that because I have kids that need to be watched, but I am considering making and donating quilts for a shelter I used to stay at.

Friends can be exhausting when you're depressed, but if you have some you can spend time with that would help.

Do you read or anything like that?

I also think I'll start a blog on psych central. Not that I care if anyone ever reads it, but I used to enjoy writing. I no longer have an interest. probably not an ability, to write the light, happy stuff I used to write about, but on a blog hidden from anyone who knows me, I may have it in me to write what's on my mind.

Do you have old hobbies from before this guy came along that you think you could revisit? Myself, I've had to force myself to continue some of the things I used to do. I no longer want to spend time with friends, the kids, or even dancing, but i force myself to go through the steps because I see it as a lifeline. It's hard to do, but when I can get myself there it often does work as a distraction.

[lizardlady]

Originally Posted by henrydavidtherobot

Any advice for what to do when I'm alone at night. I can't go walk.

What sort of stuff do you like to do?

You could pop an exercise DVD in and workout to it.

How about reading?

I did major housecleaning until 9PM last night. I was too tired to be stressed when I finished.

Do you have pets? You could spend time with them.

How about any hobbies you have? I find focusing on making jewelry keeps me from being able to focus on those ruminative (sp?) thoughts.

When all else fails I sprawl on the sofa and watch some mindless TV.

I'm sorry you are going through this right now. I want to thank you for posting about it though. Thinking of ideas for you has helped me come up with some ideas for myself.

[henrydavidtherobot]

I am a reader and I writer. I do enjoy it, but since I study creative writing and world literature, it gets old doing it all the time. I suppose that I could brush up on my Arabic. It just depresses me a little because I can't go to Egypt anymore. The gym is closed at my school for resurfacing, but I did used to dance so maybe I could brush up my skills or learn a new trick with my hoop. I am volunteering this week. I have been spending a lot of time with friends, but people in my town drink a lot and I'm trying to cut back, so I'm trying to find some things to do with myself. Maybe I'll buy a TV or video games. I guess that sometimes I just get frustrated with "bettering" myself because I am pretty successful in my job and studies and it would be nice to be happy with myself as I am. I've been spending my days setting up my new apartment as I watch movies with my cat. I think that there is a frustration about being young, attractive, intelligent, and successful but not having people treat me well that makes everything feel hopeless and bitter.