[mommie2b]

i apologize if i'm posting in the wrong place but i'm new and not really sure where to post i dont have anyone to talk to about whats going on so here i am. i'm five weeks pregnant and i'm scared and excited and miserable. i've miscarried several times over the past few months so the doctors have been monitering me almost constantly. i've had blood work done every few days to make sure my hcg levels are rising and a sonogram just a few days ago to make sure the pregnancy isn't ectopic. i feel like there's a noose around my neck and with every test i'm just waiting for the chair to be kicked out from under me. i have cramping and spotting and it's unlikely my body will hold on to this baby and the harder i try to stay positive the more i seem to worry.
while i was in bed all day praying that this pregnancy will keep it appears my boyfriend was online viewing internet porn. thats the little gift i got when i hit control h instead of control n (user history instead of new page. i threw up).
i've had to stop taking meds in order to have a healthy baby and i'm hanging on by a very thin thread. and the progesterone supplements they gave me to prevent miscarraige seem to be aggravating my condition. i'm a paranoid hysterical woman right now and since i hate my boyfriend too much to ask for his support i'm here and if anyone has any words of wisdom i'd be very very grateful.

[jennie]

you cannot predict the future. you cannot control everything. what you have control over is your attitude.

you ARE pregnant. a baby grows inside of you. rejoice!

eat right. take supplements. eat foods rich in folic acid. take naps.

reward yourself. take bubble baths. sing to your baby. read books. do your favorite hobbies. go shopping.

[FaithisAlive]

Yes.. Think of the baby.. not the bf....the stress. the negative feelings.. all not good.. baby feels that too...

[Boopers]

Ohmommie2b,

I'm so sorry your BF is being this way. You need someone you can count on and he doesn't sound interested in the life that you carry. His baby, his blood.
I truly hope that your stress level can come down and that the baby will be OK.
Just keep praying girl and know that I will pray for you too!!
Linda

[January]

((((((((((( Mommie2b )))))))))))))

The others have given you very good advice. I know the hormone levels make things even harder. We are all here for you.

Calming hugs,

Jan

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

I am sorry that you are going through all this despair and stress right now... for you and your unborn baby need a calm and relaxed surrounding right now so that the two of you can continue to be healthy.

Coming from a past with sexual abuse and with my husband of 20 years using porn (now in the past) I would like to offer my experience and understanding in helping you get through this moment in your life....
Now - while I am not by any means excusing your b/f actions (for they are truly wrong & very hurtful) I feel the need to let you know that your b/f may very well still love you and care just as much for your unborn child, and the ones lost... but right now he is sub-coming to the old myth that our society has constantly preached and pushed onto him and many of other males to the point that they now believe it to be true..... that they can find and heal all woes in and through The Woman - within Her Sexuality.... hence the overwhelming popularity of porn.

Please let me know if there is any thing else that I can help you with, please feel free to PM me any time.... I am here for YOU.


LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( )))

I have some physical health problems for which I was always told I should never get pregnant for I probably would not be able to carry the baby full term and possibly endanger my life.

I chose at 30 to have a child. planned and got pregnant and then carried that miracle baby to full term and delivered a beutiful 7 pound 8 and a half ouce baby without having any of the predicted problems and danger to my life.

It took many many appointments with each of my doctors working together and my following the treatment plans every step of the way.

Miracles of child birth when the odds are stacked against the perspective parent can happen for you too.

Just take it one day at a time and hang in there

[dcs_no1_fan]

(((((mommie2b)))))

Im sorry to read your post I know what is like to lose a baby that you so badly want to have & was told that I would not be able to have children naturally & if I want to have them in my life look at other ways of doing so so I gave up all hope of ever carrying my own child as I would never be able to have IVF only to go on & find that I was pregnant again & this time I had a healthy baby boy who is now 8 yrs old & a year later I found out I was carrying again & had another baby boy who is 6yrs miracles can happen & they did to me I will keep praying for you please let us know how you get on through out the wks/ months ect
I know its hard to get your head around what your b/f is doing but at least hes not hitting you try sitting him down & ask him how long he has been doing it & why he does it you might find that he has only done it from you falling pregnant as some men fell that they will hurt the baby if you have sex I know thats how my husband felt but he didnt use porn instead

Take Care

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{mommie2b}}}}

I'm sorry for the miscarriages you've had. I know what those are like, I've had several myself. My husband wasn't the most supportive about those, I don't think he understood how deeply they hurt, or maybe he didn't know what to do to help? Either way, they were a few years ago, and I now can't have children. I hope everything goes well and you have this baby

I don't really have advice about the porn thing. My husband has always known how I dislike it, so he doesn't bother with it. Does your b/f know how you feel about it?

Take Care of you and baby

[JustAPixie]

[lenjan]

Have you been tested for antiphospholipid syndrome? It's a clotting disorder that can lead to multiple miscarriages. It IS possible to carry a baby to term if you have it, you just need to take a low-molecular weight heparin (which is not harmful to the baby like Coumadin is), and maybe baby aspirin.

You can find more information here . Feel free to PM me about it, as I have APS (as you might have guessed). It can be dx'd by a couple of blood tests.

Candy

[EJ711]

Hi Mommie2B,

I can understand how you are feeling.

I have survived multiple miscarriages, and they are not easy.

I'm sorry you are not able to turn to your boyfriend for support at this time.

Keep us posted on how it is going.

Hugs,

EJ

[Sarah116]

You could check with WEBMD or a Health board on Yahoo.