A couple years ago around about this time of year I wrote a thread which was entitled "I don't want to waste the next year like I did this one", or something like that.

I had wasted 2011 and I didn't want to waste 2012 the same way.

The thing is now it's 2013 and I have wasted 2011, 2012 and 2013 consecutively.

Some of it has been due to depression and anxiety and all that, but really it just feels like I've been living in my own head the last 3 years and I need a dose of reality or something to break me out of it.

Anyway, I have wasted another year, and I hope this stops soon cos I'm tired of wasting my life.

Having said that I'm sure I'll waste tomorrow too. I have therapy and no other plans.

[manwithnofriends]

Surely the only way to not "waste" your life is to do something productive?

[Travelinglady]

I wouldn't say therapy is a waste. You are trying to get help. What would you like to be doing that you think would be more productive and less "wasteful"?

At least you're in therapy and trying to get better - i'm not even doing that. All you can do is follow your current plan and surely if you commit to therapy things will improve from there on in? The point of therapy is to help you achieve a level of functionality again, I would focus on that for the mean time and leave the future where it is...the future.

[Little Miss Death]

i wasted it too. the about accomplishments is you have to want them. i don't want to climb a ****ing mountain or fall in love.

[Hellion]

I've wasted the past few years as well dropping out of college that was a waste of time to begin with, waiting on SSI going through the appeal process and going to therapy.....and at best what I've gotten out of it is a 50/50 chance I'll win my SSI appeal and ER bill I can't pay.

As for therapy I don't think I have really gotten much out of it, my mental state certainly has not improved and I've had some bad luck with medications hence why I am not willing to try the anti-depressant my psychiatrist prescribed I don't want to **** with another SSI I'm sticking with the valium for anxiety right now since that doesn't do anything weird and I only have to take it if my anxiety starts getting out of control. But I hate the feeling of wasting my life...and getting on SSI isn't nessisarily going to fix that.

[H3rmit]

I have a suggstion for how not to waste (not that you asked for that -- and I do sympathize with your problem. Been there a lot.)

Keep a notebook and make a plan for the day. Try out whatever you want. "I will write a short story." or "I will exercise and eat right (in some particular way)" or I will think about x and look for a solution. Anything. Then next day reread it, think about what happened, and evaluate your plan. Doesn't have to be single-day plans, but that's about the minimum length. Got this idea from some business website. I like it!

[Pikku Myy]

IT........ did not want to ... but I did now waking up to the facts