[Macallan]

Clinical Psychology, Psychiatry and Relgious Experiences have the same roots, and often heavy in the arts rather than science. They have yet to correct the problems in my life, or shield me from my own "mystical" experiences that have caused my lifestyle to spiral downward. It's as if they did nothing, except help the failure when they should have been teaching and training me in the arts as well as the sciences. When my journey began I was at the top, it cost me my money, friends and family, job, sanity and life; as my best friend said it would. Now I'm broke, live in subsidzed housing in the projects, and can't even walk. If all that would change back to the lifestyle and wellness I had before.
Somehow things became so mixed up and I'm neither the person or where I should be.
The powers are within, and always have been; the outside influences including the practioners of psychology, psychiatry and religious experiences and others often lead on the wrong path, now without money they simply aren't available for guidance or the coveted training.

i'm sorry that your experiences have not been good ones and i truly hope that your situation improves......but many are helped.....i do see two conflicting statements in your post though..."they have yet to correct the problems in my life......etc....."....they are not meant to be solutions but stepping stones......then you say." the powers are within and always have been.....".if you believe that then there is alot of hope that you will perserver and come out on top.........

[Macallan]

TY for your response
I've enjoyed a mixture of experiences both pinicles and troughs, (such is the nature of the entire man) for some reason my sleep was disturbed until I made the post, at one point I was even dreaming that I was typing it in; it was real enough that it took a few moments after waking to realize that I had yet to do it. As soon as I did, whatever it was went away (though the language I used in my dream was somehow more articulate than what I ended up posting) and I slept well into the morning.
One thing I'm sure of, is that man is a lot more than we seem to be. and the journey should end with understanding and the opening of new doors rather than a "pill".

[(JD)]

Welcome Macallan! Those are certainly topics I like to discuss.

But first, in personal response to your post, I understand what you say. What I have just realized (again?) is that after each really dark time, there is a spurt of growth. Or, maybe, before each spark of understanding that opens to me, I am mired into an equally dark time.

It seems the higher I travel on my path, the more I am required to undertake personally... problem is, whenever I am in the dark, I cannot remember ever being out of it, nor that enlightenment follows.

Yes, our connection to the Source is always within. It is the external influences that we allow to suck energy from us, the looters* in our pathway, that causes us to fall from time to time.

We will try to be here during both times for you! Draw from our energy as we GIVE it to share.... come back often.

*looters discussed in another post.

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