Ok not really.

Well, ok yes really.

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I just posted this on my wall:

There's a hole in my face where a tooth and a little bit of jawbone used to be.
...basically because of impending [though currently impacted] wisdom tooth of doom complications, I had to get rid of problem tooth as it was not a great candidate for restoration.

Well this week's been just completely stupid.

Um... I don't know, I could say I lost "a little" weight today, I guess...
Just agree with me until the pain management kicks in, OKAY?!

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But then I took it down.
I mean, I try to treat things as humorous, because most things are.
Pain sucks, though most of the time I can kind of deal with a lot of pain for a time.

I got really scared when they were taking out my tooth though.
Like, started kind of crying and whimpering. I can't explain why it was so scary. It wasn't that painful when they were doing it, but it was kind of like... What if something goes REALLYREALLYWRONG?

I don't know. I'm still a little freaked out. Not that I have a big nothing in my mouth... not the aftermath. But the experience.

It honestly scared the crap out of me at the time. There was a bit of like, primal "I might die" kind of fear welling up.

I really don't know why. I guess I want to discuss it. i don't know.
Should I even discuss it?

I knew logically that it was "going to be ok"- I didn't have any question as to the doctor's expertise or anything and we had talked about possible complications. i wasn't afraid of that.

The experience... I got really scared. Like... when I get scared of really loud unexpected noises and can't hear anything else.

I wasn't hysterical or sobbing, just kind of like... slow and deep alarm.
I'm still freaked out a bit.

I don't know. ICK.

[gayleggg]

Been where you are. It is scary.
Warm wishes for a quick recovery.

[avlady]

i had a molar pulled 2 weeks ago, it was a dead tooth, had 4 novacaine shots which was the worst part. i was extremely scared and he yanked it out in 5 minutes, then i said "that's it? it came out in a couple of tugs but i was scarry until it came out all the way. it left a whole in the back of my gum which is still healing. i don't feel any pain, just the first day.

[healingme4me]

I've had a molar extraction, before. Who can afford crowns and caps and bridges and all else?! Well, some can, I cannot. Yanking the thing, led to pain relief.

So, I do understand, that whole aspect. Hope you have a speedy recovery. Humour is cool!! I like what you wrote

Thanks for the support.
I got just... way more scared than I can really remember being in a long long long time. I don't even know that I was that deeply afraid when I had a pretty horrific car accident. I'm kind of wondering if my brain just glitched or something.

I'm trying to... NOT FREAK OUT ABOUT FREAKING OUT!
ha.

[Auntie2014]

It could just be from the medication that they gave you. When I had my wisdom teeth hulled I felt real weepy but was not sad. When they were finished the nurse had my mom come into the room to walk out with me and told her that the weeping was normal for the meds. Just a thought.

I only had local anesthetic but I actually kind of... I mean I'm wondering if I just tripped onto some kind of phobia that I never knew I had.
My response to all this just makes NO sense to me and I'm really uncomfortable with my entire reaction to the whole situation.
I've had a lot of medical procedures and such where it's really not that deeply upsetting. Someone suggested the possibility of a phobic response, but I'm not sure I buy it. If so... I don't want to encourage it, and I don't know what to do about it.

But I know nothing about phobic issues. Is this what a phobia is like?
I felt like I was being tortured, but it wasn't the pain that was an issue.
I felt like a wild frightened animal. I've never been in a situation where I was so scared I was wimpering beyond when I was a very small child.

I'm not trying to be melodramatic- I do actually feel my response to the situation was way beyond reasonable but it doesn't really change that it was my response and I had no control over it. I'm supposed to have more work done, including removal of my wisdom teeth.

Because I've had head trauma I may actually have to be awake for it.
So... that should be a lot of fun if so?

I want to just pretend this is nothing but I don't think it's "no big deal". Today was totally disturbing.

I don't know what to make of it.
I hate my brain.

[hinderedgirl76]

Okay, well I try to recognize not all fear can be rationalized, and then I practice my right to be irrational. And when it comes to even going to the dentist, I trip out. I have to take Valium to have minor procedures, so I COMPLETELY relate. I feel like it's okay to be afraid of things, it's okay that things that maybe aren't a "huge hairy deal" to some people, scare the crap out of others. I know a girl that's terrified of butterflies - makes sense to her. So try not to stress it too much. Recognizing you have a fear is a good start. I do wish you a very quick recovery, as I know having wisdom teeth pulled is painful. I also thought your wall post was witty and clever

[unaluna]

Ive been like that about the polar vortex winter weather lately. Plus i broke off part of a tooth and have an appointment at a new dentist next week, plus my lips are super chapped i dont know why and they hurt like heck and i just hope theyll be okay by next week. But the weather is very scary. I am so glad when i get safely back home. I guess i dont usually let myself feel scared. I just tough it out. Go blank. Maybe its time to feel little girl scared and talk about it in therapy? Idk.

Originally Posted by hankster

I guess i dont usually let myself feel scared. I just tough it out. Go blank. Maybe its time to feel little girl scared and talk about it in therapy? Idk.

This might be it.
It also might be that the whole "brushing a raw nerve with my tooth brush" thing was SO painful that I have now started to have premptive fear of pain... And this sounds all cocky and stuff, I don't mean it to be, but I've never really outright feared pain before.

I've always had a pretty high pain tolerance and threshold and been able to get through a lot of pain just by like some kind of bizarre zen breathing, detachment and the solid mindset that "By comparison, I will feel great when this is over".

But amazingly, the amount of pain I experienced this past weekend surpassed anything I have ever before experienced- including the previously mentioned head trauma and that time I broke my ankle in three places and, for whatever reason, tried to walk on it [I'm not even going to try to explain that one].

But it's like now I'm scared that I'm going to feel that pain again and it's kind of terrifying.
Maybe that is it.

Or maybe just having a tooth ripped out of your mouth is freaking terrifying.
Um either way I'm starting therapy again!

haha

/me throws confetti!

Thanks guys.

[eskielover]

I can relate.....I have to have ALL my teeth pulled & get dentures because most have broken off.....bad enamel from when the teeth developed as a kid (I was sick a lot & the antibiotics)......anyway...this is what I have to deal with NOW......went to the Dental school....which is a lot less...but I also have to have some other oral surgury done to remove bony tissue so they can fit the dentures.....I said....knock me out completely or I won't let you close.

it takes 3-4 months to heal before they can put in the bottom implants....then 3-4 more months to heal before they can do the permanent dentures.....ugh....what an ordeal.......not to happy about that but its going to take me some time before I can save up the money to put down on it....so OH well....praying that nothing starts to hurt really bad before that.....but other issue....can't find a pain specialist who is willing to continue the treatment my previous pain specialist continued from my previous one in California.....so I'm really stressed & UNHAPPY.

[Pikku Myy]

Remember a dentist trying to give me funny gas once Can you say Holy Flipping Nightmare Glad you are a bit better Josie

OK, so Josie figured something out.
PROTIP:
Marcane contains epinephrine.

This isn't/shouldn't be a big deal, but I tend to be a bit sensitive to it. I had gotten a shot of marcane at the ER on Saturday, and felt some effects and found out it had epinephrine after and that wasn't a huge deal. It didn't occur to me that might be a factor in how I was feeling during the extraction because I didn't think about the fact that they gave me WAY more than they had on Saturday. Like way.

So... biological fear response much?
yeah.

I mean, not that I would have been all sunshine happy, but I think that probably explains the extent of how just completely and utterly scared and disturbed I was.

So, Auntie2014 you did have a point with your first post- I was just thinking like... altered consciousness kind of medication, not a local anesthetic. Haha sorry.

DUH.
I am going to ask about the similar med that they give to people with heart issues that doesn't have the epinephrine, but actually now that I have that in mind and it makes sense to me, it will actually be easier to deal with.

Brains are so weird.

Thanks for the help everyone.

[Iamwho]

Yeah. epinephrine, ephedrine, that stuff made me psychotic and I had to admit myself to a psych hospital, years ago.
I used to take it for my asthma, weight control and alertness.
Hubbs is getting all his teeth puled at 66 yrs old. Dry mouth and radiation treatment for laryngeal cancer didn't help his teeth.
Good luck with your teeth.