[thecrayZones?]

I an 18 year old boy. Almost my whole life so far ive felt this hanging lonliness like i was never meant to connect with people. Im very anti-social atleast sometimes i become that wa. Im akward and sometimes i really want to talk to people and i just cant do it. I can talk yo mywelf and i do. But its more than just me i van talk to different parts of myself. And they vome out like a person changing my thoughta my actions even my voive it scares me sometimes. Sometimes i can convince myself im just being paranoid and go back to normal for a little whike then it come back again. Same with my eye twitch. I van usually find myself and come out when i need it but there have been.times ive lost myself for a quite sometime in this mess of a mind i have. I always seem to picture tradgic, detailed and gorey visions of people aaround me as well as myself. Most of the time its those close to me such as family or friends. I always seem to lose friends i wasnt used to be able to make friends wen iwas young at all i couldnt speak to anyone. From the outside it appears many people see me as a normal person. I do not fear death i do not wish to die but often times i catch myself thinking i except my fate as if i were going to die that day. i say my silent goodbyes . Argue with myself from multiple points of views. And have troube sleeping

[pegasus]

Hello, welcome to Psych Central!

It sounds like you could do with some help yes. Please see your doctor and see if there is a counselor attached to your school. If you have trouble sleeping that could be a reason, it is so important to get the rest you need, without the quality sleep the brain can do alsorts of things to confuse us. Hugs

[avlady]

I used to have the same problem, but i'm a a 53 year old woman and a mother of a 23 year old son. He also had some issues with what you're talking about and his therapist seems to think it is just a phase, of which i also went through when i was your age. I feel so bad for him and you because i know how bad it feels, but somehow i just grew out of it, and then everything came together throughout my life and somehow i got here. It is great you are here and i hope you can see a therapist or doc that coud help you. Try not to worry about things or dwell on things that happen too much as that was how i was when i first got sick mentally. I have schitzoaffective disorder, and the meds helped save my life.