Im going away for a while...

simon... I dont always reaspond to your posts, but i do read them... i saved your Smooth song on my list of favorites as it is awesome!!!!! I have enjoyed your words of wisdom and if you leave I will miss them!!

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So sorry to hear this, Simon.

But it sounds like you are taking good care of your needs which is the most important thing you can do.

Take care of yourself,

Petunia

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I already told you this, but you're welcome. I try to help my friends when they need it, and you needed it.

I hope you decide to stay, but if you don't I hope you choose to stay in contact.

Simon, I always appreciated your sensitivity & warmth. I remember one thread from a guy who was 30 or something & hadn't had sex. You wrote the most beautiful post--I didn' t think a man could feel the emotional context of sex so well. Anyway, right then & there I decided you were a special person & I haven't found anything to the contrary.

Whatever you decide to do, I know you will be taking care of yourself as you see fit.

But if you go away, I will miss those wonderful, insightful posts. You certainly weren't "invisible" to me.--Suzy

Hi guys

i am feeling better, feeling happier with many things.

your posts have been...whats the word...wonderful, inspirational, touching, and heart-warming. they really are.

when i first wrote this thread last week, i felt invisible, alone, and just plain down. i think the nerves were getting to me too, from my vocal lesson. and i was hurt because i saw people i really cared for hurting. my natural instinct is to help, and to repair bridges. i realised i couldnt do that, and it kind of hit an inner-nerve. it hit me personally, i dont know why, i still dont know now. but it did.

the last few days, i have been thinking about it, and by reading your post have realised i wasnt as invisible as i felt. you all said such nice things, that i feel it would be rude to leave. i dont like running away from my problems, im the type of person who HAS to face up to my issues, i have never run from anything, and never will. i dont class me leaving here as running away, i know i needed it.

i will be honest now. when i wrote the post i didnt expect anyone to write a reply, not because i thought you didnt care, not that at all, but because i didnt feel anyone would care about me. i didnt feel as though i had helped anyone, therefore making it easy to leave. but the comments you left me, made me see that i am accepted, and liked. it seemed to hard to say i would leave and not return - which was my initial plan.

i am returning as of now. i know it has been a short break - alot shorter than i expected - but i feel mentally like i can return now. i feel safe again, and non-threatened. besides, it is hard to leave somewhere like this when you have such nice support from people, id be mad to walk away to not return.

again, thank you. it did (and still does) mean so much to me, what you all said.

look forward to speaking soon, and sorry for that momentary blip! i needed this week to remain unseen. it certainly helped.

simon

I am so glad that you are safe Simon, and especially happy that you are back...

YAY Simon. Love having you around, you know that. You're a special addition to the site and to some people here, remember that.