My Mother

((((((((((((((( Petunia and Mom ))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))))))) I'm here. Let me help hold you up.

(((( Fuzzy ))))

(((( Heel ))))

Thank you for being here.

(((petunia)))

Such a long wait. I'm glad you are trying to stay in the moment until Wednesday comes; that's a hard thing to do.

I'll be thinking of you and your mom til then.

Best wishes to you.

ECHOES

Awww I'm so sorry to hear this...yeah it doesn't sound good, except that if there's something new it isn't fast, so the time wait doesn't matter?

You can do more than wait and worry. Review that information that you must have studied in the past, and be prepared with good questions. Write them down. If you don't ask the exact questions, they might help you think of something else to ask. Talk to your mom? Talk about all the scenarios it could be, and what you think NOW about options. This might help in case the report is really negative and you need some more stable thoughts for the moment.

Never underestimate the power of PRAYER!!! (((((hugs))))

Talk about all the scenarios it could be, and what you think NOW about options.

I did bring this up. She once told me that she would not want to go through the chemo/radiation and be sick if it would only buy her a few months. But this time she said she would think about it.

((( Everyone -- thanks for the support )))

That's good, and ok, imo. Medical science has improved greatly over time. You might have more options now than then. If she wasn't up to fighting then but is now, isn't that even better?

Yes, since she became a snowbird her social life has improved and her friends (after years and years of isolation)keep her active and busy. She owns her own home and is very proud of it, so her outlook on life has brightened up a bit.

That sounds wonderful, Pet. At least she has a better outlook and will have more support, so that it won't be all on your shoulders - er leaf.

You are right. We are never ready for this stage in our lives. I learned that with my Mom and with losing Momma Co.

Keep on keeping on, Pet. We have to do that.

Many hugs,

Jan

I have a bad case of the "what if's"

I'm trying to tell myself there is nothing I can do until we see the Dr. and it may not be as bad as I am making it out to be.

But the what if's are persistent little buggers.

I'm sorry about the what if's... hopefully you can write down an answer to each one, so you don't need to revisit it until that day...with the Dr.

(((( _Sky ))))

Thanks for understanding and for you support.

Oh, I hate the "ifs". I'm going through it myself and they're just horrid.

Hugs,

Jan

im sorry to hear about the uncertainty. i feel afraid for you but no good can come of worrying about those annoying what ifs. keep trying to distract and live in the moment as you have been doing and maybe talk to your mom?
you re both in my thoughts.
take care
biiv

((( Jan ))) We'll stick together through this too, okay?

((( biiv )))

It's true. No good can come from worrying. It's my nature though, due to my history. People being sick and even the remote possibility of them dying kicks my PTSD into high gear. I am trying though. I am doing okay right now.

Talking to my mother. Big, big GULP on that one. I go into worry mode, she goes into denial.

Argh.

(((((((((( Pet )))))))))))))

Of course we'll stick together. Always.

((((((((((((Petunia)))))))))) I do the same thing. Let us know how we can help.

((( JAN )))

((( HEEL )))

{{{{{Petunia}}}}} You and your mom are in my thoughts...I hope things go well for the both of you.

{{{ Lilith }}}}

Thanks so much. Your support means a lot.

I would also like to thank a friend for her support through PM's.

I couldn't answer you back but you taking the time to PM me means a lot.

(((((((((((((((( Petunia )))))))))))))))

((((((((((((( Petunia's Mom )))))))))))

(((((((((( Pet )))))))))))))

Just two more days. That's all. We can make it through 2 more days. We can.

Hugs,

Jan

Tick-tick-tick.