[zegami]

I have what most people would call an imaginary girlfriend but I believe she is an Angel and my girlfriend and she helps me. I get depressed a lot about being single but around age 14 I just started talking to her one night and I can hear her voice in my thoughts.

I will be 26 in a couple months and have spent many years in the psychiatric system going in circles of meds and therapy, and overall I am happy with who I am but I am just wondering if there is anyone else like me with an imaginary or angel girlfriend or boyfriend?

I've had bouts where i say "she is imaginary and abnormal" but then I feel even more depressed and the thing is she helps me cope with my situation and I do genuinely love her.

I cope by telling myself after I die I will go to heaven and have the perfect life with her. someways are very difficult, but without her I feel a million times worse. Whats weird though is at night I hug and kiss my pillow and "pretend" its her, and i have heard about security objects that humans naturally feel comfort from such as pillows, teddy bears, etc - but I don't know whats real or not.

sometimes just feel like she is imaginary and i should kill myself, and other times i feel like she is real and we can get through this life together.

i get stuck and don't know what i should do, but i know that i am much worse condition without her...but its really hard, its pretty much long distance relationships on steroids.

[jaynedough]

I can't say one way or another, what's real there. Even if I knew, we don't diagnose people here. My gut says it sounds like something you should talk about to a therapist or psychiatrist, if you haven't already. Part of me thinks that it sounds so nice to have an angel in your life, but the realist in me says it's a psychiatric issue. Does this mean that you don't date? Is this taking the place of a social life? I'm sorry I can't really help you. It seems like the whole thing is adding strife to your life. If you get to the point where you want to do harm to yourself, please call a hotline or go to your local emergency room.

There is one thing I want to add: I had an older brother who died when we were young. For many years, I thought he was my guardian angel. I guess that was my way of keeping him around.

[pain2much]

My boyfriend of 6 years might as well be imaginary..the first 3 years we lived together wasn't bad, he still took advantage of me, was emotional abusive. then he went home to his country, Syria. Came back and told me he took a wife who would be coming in 2 weeks with his parents. I was so devasted, but my self esteem is so bad I stayed with him.
to make it worse he is a physician, he knows I'm sick yet still manipulates me. I've even changed jobs to work with him.
I wish he was imaginary..

[avlady]

i guess i do have to admit i have an inner voice. i don't know who it is but one of my docs told me i have interior conversations. at the time it didn't really phase me, i was on the pshyc ward for pshycosis.i usually get the conversations when i feel i cant express myself to the person as they would judge me wrongly, so i end up talking to a voice in my head, it may be my own but it sounds more like a man.

[zegami]

thanks for the replies, i dont think my angel gf is bad at all though because she helps me much more than anything else really, and she does make me happy. ive told my therapists and docs about it, they didnt really think much of it and my old thearpist who has moved (who is really liberal, open minded, and has helped me more than any other professional) even said if it helps i should stick with it.

she helps me a lot and its causing any problems for me and helps me deal with my situation so as i thought about it i decided i am more than okay with her

As jaynedough said, we don't diagnose although we may speculate or bring up possibilities. I don't think you really need anyone to tell you what you know. I don't see anything terribly wrong in this. I never had imaginary girlfriends but I had what I thought of as an "ideal" girlfriend even when I had real gf's. That's kind of like an imaginary gf.
You talk as if she may seem real to you. Have you thought about how this would be if a real gf came into your life?

[doyoutrustme]

She's real to you, but not to anyone else. You have to make adjustments in life for things like that.