[AngstyLady]

I read something just now and just felt instant jealousy/anger towards myself and where I'm at, like a ****ing failure, and I usually just jump straight towards loud music to help calm me- but perhaps I should listen to my tranquility base radio station on Pandora instead- I really can't think straight right now, but I'm trying . . . I don't know why I posted this, maybe people can relate? I think writing has helped me a bit . . still feeling a bit upset though. . .

[-jimi-]

I can't see myself in proper nuances. I usually feel OK about me, faults and all. But sometimes especially when I'm both tired and stressed and then a failure comes into focus I can somehow crash down and think I suck at everything. How I physically react to it differs.

I just have a hard time seeing the whole picture. So sometimes a detail becomes the whole picture. Odd how that happens.

For me it helps choosing music fitting my mood because it tells me I'm not alone. I don't get help listening to music fitting the mood I want to be in.

[gayleggg]

I lose it more often than I would like to.

[AngstyLady]

Yeah, I'm feeling better, it was short lived, as these things are . . . I'm definitely listen to music that fits my mood- always been into music as a sort of therapy.