[bipolarrhea77]

Has anyone ever felt so drained from all the thoughts and movement in your brain that your diagnosis creates up there, I feel like I have been at work all day as a person that counsels people or someone that's been busy with their mind so bad that it's going out of mission from running all day in a marathon I'm exhausted from all my razing thoughts, and psychotic thoughts that have been invented from visions I see as worthless as a candy wrapper, isn't it crazy how seeing something so small can dig into a bigger vision as traumatic experience you have experienced in your life that triggers your mind from that event. I'll explain, you are at a dark list lonely evil place with demons around and someone that is about to attack you hands you a piece of candy and suddenly he attacks you brutally and the candy wrapper falls to the ground and you look at that candy wrapper as if it might be the last thing you will ever see again cuz this man is going to read and kill you. You just kept staring the wrapper deep into it it's helping you from screaming and helping you be calm then years later your walking by you look at the ground do and you see the exact same can wrapper on the sidewalk, it triggers your mind you spent thousands of dollars on therapy because of that night and that candy wrapper made you go in a severely mental breakdown and you end up being hospitalized and never come get out of the mental attack has that ever happened to you? Respond if that has happened to you, just one picture in your mind little as a candy wrapper can be traumatized every time you see a jolly rancher

It has happened to me quite a few times and I get the feeling I'm going to be a drooling asylum patient before I turn 40. The damage that I have alraedy taken at the age of 25 is enough to make me feel that way. Right now I am trapped in a hate spiral that has kept me awake for over a week and I really feel like I am ready to snap at anytime. I pray that people are right when they tell me it gets better.

[Nammu]

You might consider posting in the PTSD forum here at Psych Central, many of us there have had to deal with flashbacks.

[darkpurplesecrets]

I understand and yes. Your words just painted a vivid picture, one that hits the nail on the head. Thank you.

It is something you cannot help or stop, it takes you within the very breath your breathing to a breath you last took before the blackness swallowed you within its grips and the wrapper is all you can remember laying on the ground. You disappeared between the frames. But each time that wrapper appears, it is all you ever wish you could hold onto, but it always disappears within that blackness over and over again.

Life changed forever, and forever never seems to end.

dps

[avlady]

the trick is to turn the candy wrapper into a flower or other siteful thing. you need to change your perspective about the wrapper, it takes years of therapy and meds too if it is that bad. i also feel this way in my life too, too many triggers too many times. i am happy to say i have a good support system with my husband and son, but it is still very hard to hang in there sometimes.i learned through experience i'm a lifer on my meds, i tried to stop them just last week and had an almost breakdown. i went back on them and feel great right now. i also started taking vitamins for vit b deficiency. i don't know if it helped with the triggers but i feel like it did.