[wookiegoldfur]

I used to want to grow up and be my own person, but now I feel intensely guilty for growing up. I miss being a kid and watching Malcolm in the middle and Pokemon and running around like all kids did. I miss being carefree. Part of me really feels like I am not in the time period I'm supposed to be in. I feel like I should still be a kid and the life I have now isn't where I'm supposed to be. When I watch old movies and shows and look at old photos and home movies I want to ball my eyes out. In fact I have many times. I'm almost 19 and have a job and I drive, so I don't act like a child. I don't have responsibilities like paying bills though because I live at home. I've been watching Pokemon lately and for the most part I've been totally fine and enjoying it. But these past few days I've had problems at work with my managers leading my sister and I on for weeks about hiring her. I'm at the point where I hate them. I don't want to go to work anymore. I want to quit and I've only been there 2 months. I have a history of quiting jobs 2 months into them. My past 3 jobs I've quit a couple weeks to 3 months into them. I'm not ready to be an adult. I've been holding back tears all day because I miss being a kid. I don't know what to do anymore! Am I the only one who gets this way!? What do I do????

Unfortunately the only thing you can do is come to terms that growing up in inevitable. I grew up to fast and there are things that I miss about childhool, but I have responsibility, and a job. I have to do what I need to do to support myself and my wife. But that doesnt mean you can't still have fun. I still go out and play sports, and do thinks that I did as a child, but in somewhat moderation. Being an adult doesnt mean the fun is over.

[eskielover]

I actually couldn't wait to grow up & get out of the house of my family. I was ready to be grown up before I was 13. In reality, I enjoyed my adult life (I'm 62) a lot more than I did my childhood because my parents were poor & we never did much of anything as a family or for vacations......so my life started after I got my degree & got my career. I ended up married & even though it was a bad marriage, we had equal income so I was able to do all the things I wanted even with a bad marriage. Got to travel, see lots of things, experience a lot of things & do challenging things my parents would have never thought of doing or letting me do because there was NO money.....Yes, being responsible is challenging....but there are really wonderful things about independence & not having to depend on others to determine what your life is going to be like......

The transition periods I have found are the most difficult getting used to new phases in life....but once settled in & getting used to is....they become our new normal

[jaynedough]

Hi Wookiegoldfur. I'm sorry you're in so much turmoil. I read some of your other posts and it sounds like you have alot going on. You'd said you had an appointment with a neurologist; did your tests turn up anything?

Please reconsider seeing a professional. You don't have to disclose everything from day one, or ever, for that matter. You can start by saying that you have trust issues. Most therapists are used to dealing with all kinds of issues. Trust can be built over time. I, too, have trust issues and it was so amazing when I found a T and PDoc that I could fully disclose to. I just think that it would be helpful for you to have a diagnosis and supportive treatment. A counselor can help you find your way; to be the best you that you can be.

Take care.

[avlady]

growing up is a hard thing to do sometimes as with added responsibilities, maybe you're afraid of them and this is why you still want to be a kid. once you get over the hurdel although you'll find you still can be a kid especially when you have your own children, then you can play with them. its a circle.

[AngstyLady]

Ugh, yeah, Growing up really sucks- I don't feel guilty, just nostalgic a lot- I often still feel like a kid- I have a lot of regrets for things I never did, risks I never took- things I never tried and now I feel like I'm too old to do them (32). But yeah, we all have these feelings, mainly because society tells us that we're supposed to be/act a certain way at certain ages, but doesn't mean you can't goof off at home and relax and be yourself. you'll probably always love pokemon and malcolm in the middle and such, there's nothing wrong with that. It shows that you had a great childhood and have fond memories. :-)