[PlanningtoLive]

I hate this time of night. No matter how tired I am, I have a hard time sleeping and settling down.

I love the quiet but that's when there are no noises to calm the sound of my thoughts running here, there, and everywhere. My husband always asks when I'm going to bed.........how can you tell someone that doesn't really understand that you'd love to be able to, but can't??

Then I'm exhausted in the morning after I get up to get my son off to school and fall back into sleep. Half my day off is gone when I finally do get up........[sigh].

Sometimes there is just no winning from this disorder. I've tried everything to make me drowsy, but I always snap out of it when my brain just keeps going. Then I get antsy and can't sit still. Even here at the computer, I'm fidgeting and my legs are moving.........bouncing up and down.

And no meds to help............grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[darkeyes]

I am having this right now too and it is 210am
Us Bipolars get this sometimes, this time it really isn't the typical racing thoughts, like a few years ago, I slept 2 hours per nite for 8 months then crashed, etc.
Good luck and hopefully a good nite

"me"

(((((((((((((((((((((( hugs to you )))))))))))))))))

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[PlanningtoLive]

Hi DE.........good morning!!! lol.

It's 1:14am here and unfortunately this happens to me every night.

Let's see, last night I finally was able to go about 3am, even then once I was laying down it took awhile.

Hmmmm, thought I saw you post you were going to sleep?? Gosh, this stinks.

Mary Alice

[darkeyes]

Hope it doesn't go non stop for 8 months, I mean before that I use to get lousy sleep but not that bad, 2hrs per nite, whew, and I went to college, raised a kid and houswife, wish I had that energy again, ha!ha! I must confess it was induced with stimulants too besides some mild mania, ha!ha!
Now I only use what my pdoc has me on
I hope you get some rest, talk again soon
we need a little sleepy icon here too, ha!ha!

"me"

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[PlanningtoLive]

It's been going on for quite a few months now, unfortunately. I'm not that far from your age, DE, I'm sitting at 42 here.

I wish I had the energy and time to go back to college and finish my degree, but I don't. Between work, and home, there is no extra time.

My son and I even listen to those ocean/wind/bird songs that you get - works for him, but not me.......lol.

Oh well, it's 1:25am now - better get my husband's coffee ready and at least attempt some rest (notice the word "rest", not "sleep").

Night all........

[bptoo]

How many Bipolars does it take to start a thread at 2:30 in the morning? The good thing is that at least we have each other to talk to. I went into one of my world famous bouts of insomnia about three days ago, and the latest I've been able to sleep has been 3am. Oh well, I can spend some quality time with my design work.

I know, I'll design a "Bipolar Resting Room"! Let's see, over here to the left we have the Mary Alice wing....

Greg



"Beauty is truth, truth is beauty - that is all you know on earth, and all you need to know"

[SeptemberMorn]

Ha! You bipolar people think you're so special? You think you've got a corner on the sleepless nights? I've got news for you!


Here's wishing us all insomniacs a good night's sleep tonight!

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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[PlanningtoLive]

My own wing? Alright!! Since I'll be up most of the time, I can decorate and plan.

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[dexter]

if i donate 50&cent; will you name the library after me?

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--http://www.idexter.com

[darkeyes]

Sept, never stated we were "special" and being Bipolar is not a thing to take as a joke It sucks, and ALL that goes with it It is none of our choosing either

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[willoughby]

darkeyes
I think people were just trying to make others feel like they weren't alone. I dont think they were making fun of being bipolar. I took it as a couple of people having an inside joke. I hate seeing people getting upset on this chat. We all need support.

"you only have one chance to make a first impression"

[darkeyes]

Yeah, you are right, I was just having a rough time with the newest triggers in my already existant problem.
Sept, I think and hope you were only joking, right?

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[SeptemberMorn]

Of course I was joking, Hun! I'm sorry if I upset you! Forgive me? I guess my sarcastic humor doesn't always go over well, eh?

Again, I'm truly sorry if I upset you.

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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[PlanningtoLive]

[sigh] Here I go again..........another fun filled early morning.



This has to stop before I go around the bend.........

[PlanningtoLive]

2am and not a creature was stirring, not even a mouse.......




Now it's time to just go lay in bed and stare at the ceiling.........[sigh]

[Fuzzybear]

How about a bear?

I only had one hours sleep last night

xoxo

[darkeyes]

Nah, I was first hurt, but got over it. . . I possess dark humour sometimes too, and I guess sarcastic too, kind of gets me through tough times
I am sure you do, but just wanted Bipolar disorder as well as other disorders to be better understood, we all have some kind of disorder, some just don't want to accept it, none of us like that part
Take care now,
DE

BTW Did that little pool finally tempt you during the hot day(s) you were having? I liked the pic(s) they were cute

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

[PlanningtoLive]

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We could have spent time chatting and commiserating. Hope today is better for my bear.

xxoxooxoxox

[somebody]

((((Mary Alice))))
I know what you mean... my sleeping pills don't help any more so I lay in bed at night rocking myself as the thoughts go from one thing to the next and none of it makes any sense ... if it did it wouldn't be half bad, but it don't.

You're up half the night and then sleep half the day away and now the sleep schedual is totally a mess... Some days my son comes home from work at 6:15 in the evening and I am still soundly sleeping and he wakes me up.
Somebody.

[PlanningtoLive]

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I always seem to have a million thoughts racing at full speed thru my head and they're all going in different directions - and I'm trying to catch them....and when I'm upset it is even worse, because then I have anger mixed in with the thoughts.

Tonight at work I had two people really make me angry with them - one my supervisor and the other, the asst. hourly manager. I don't talk garbage about other people, esp. not another manager, and he was yaking about me tonight in front of the employees (who were all standing around not working btw) because he covered for me while I went to my son's Spring concert at school. It's not like he didn't get paid for it - I'm salary, he's not.

So since he didn't cut people and save some labor (we were so quiet tonight), my supervisor comes in later and chews me out for the high labor %..........excuse me????????? Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, I will not accept blame for someone else's mistakes, I have my own to deal with.

[Rapunzel]

Mary Alice, have you tried lithium? Maybe that would be one to ask about, since you stopped taking all the other stuff. I hope you can get some good sleep soon.

The last 3 weeks or so I have been not needing to sleep much. 3-5 hours per night has been plenty, and I could stay up most of the night and read and exercise. The jumprope has been a good friend lately. I feel sorry for my husband - he doesn't sleep well either if I don't go to bed.

It's starting to catch up with me though. It's only a little past midnight here and I'm starting to get tired. And I've been having to sleep later in the morning, where I was using that time for thinking. My autobiography was trying to write itself in my head. I want to get all that written down, but haven't gotten that far of course.

Good for you not accepting the blame at work for someone else's mistake! You know, I'm seeing a lot of good changes in you over the time that you have been here. Well, I hope you can be able to sleep soon. I'm not sure what you have tried, but I used to have pretty bad insomnia, and what worked for me was St. John's Wort, and Chamomile tea with Valerian (Celestial Seasonings Sleepytime Extra). I have not needed the Sleepytime tea much since being on the SJW, and it works really well now, but it also worked before being on SJW. Chamomile and Valerian also help to give you a feeling of being calm and relaxed, even after you wake up.

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

[PlanningtoLive]

I'm still on a "waiting list" till June to get in and see a psychiatrist. I did call my doc, left him a message asking him to do something because I can't keep this up. I'm getting more irritable as the days go by with my mood swings.

You're going to write your autobiography? That is awesome. You are such a talented, intelligent woman. May I have an autographed copy when it comes out?

As for work, I was stressed all night. I called my supervisor and told him I didn't do it.........I hate being blamed for something I didn't do. He said he'd check into things because I have 2 of my employees that said everyone was just sitting around and he didn't care about giving breaks or sending anyone home. I also wrote in the manager's log book that I take responsibility for the time I was working, but not the 3 hours that I was gone.

It wasn't so much sticking up for myself, as my temper just went out of control and instantly I was angry. I'm supposed to take that asst. mgr. with me next week to a conference about an hour and a half away - carpool. I hope he finds a ride, cuz he isn't going with me now.

Watch them tell me I'm not being a "team player" by refusing to let him ride with me.......

I haven't tried tea. I'll be honest and admit we are kind of limited with food here except for Alex. They eat up at work with me quite often. [sigh] I love being poor - we do the "necessity only" things with food.

[Rapunzel]

Well, writing my book is a dream. I don't know how far I'll take it or if I would dare publish it. Probably would have to fictionalize it somehow, but I don't know how yet. Sure, if I get it done you could have an autographed copy!

Did you realize that June is next month? You can hang on that long. I know you can.

If you want to PM me your address, I'll send you some Sleepytime tea. I have an extra box. But it's not expensive - around $4 for a box, that would last a month if you took it most nights.

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

[PlanningtoLive]

You are the best, Wendy. It won't matter whether it is June or not, hun............the food levels stay the same. We don't get assistance, since "I make too much".

Must be my limo driver................lol.

[bptoo]

Earl Grey is very good for sleeping too, and if you let others know that you drink it, they think that you are so.....international! Perception is everything you know.

Put me on the list for one of those autographed copies Wendy! I want to be able to say that I knew you before you became a world renoun author! Just remember to invite us all to the first big book signing, OK?

So, other than the last birthday that I'm ever going to have (49), what happens in June? If I'm not being too nosey that is...

Greg



"Beauty is truth, truth is beauty - that is all you know on earth, and all you need to know"