Rage

I have issues with anger (I have a lot of issues). Not all the time, but often. Every little thing irritates me, for example, tea not made right. Little things like that. I get angry so easily. It may have something to do with my perfectionism. I get mad when something doesn't go how it should or when I don't get what I want. It happens mostly around my family, I tend to upset everyone. I can get loud and insulting and I can't stop it. But that's nothing compared to my outbursts. They occur almost weekly I think (depends) and they're bad. Again, this happen for almost no reason. During this I can't talk normally, I scream, I feel hot and I behave like a lunatic. They tell me that , but I can't help it. Depending on how bad it gets, I even break stuff. I have a list of things I've broken in rage, it includes cups, plates, a phone, a windshield... I even hurt myself.
When I told my psychologist about this, he obviously didn't understand how serious it is. He told me I should get rid of excess energy by exercising regularly. I already move quite a lot daily and I started exercising, but it ISN'T helping.
My family is getting sick of me and I don't want to break more stuff or hurt myself. No matter what I try, I can't control myself. I read that irritableness is a symptom of depression? Is anyone experiencing this?

Thans for reading, have a nice day

Sounds like you got some serious issues going on. In all seriousness , I would consider an in patient evaluation, as you sound like a threat to not only yourself but society. I can't believe this hasn't been suggested to you already. If you don't do it voluntarily you may wind up going involuntarily or you may wind up in jail where they are not as understanding.

i agree with continuoslyblue. see a doc maybe go inpatient, for your safety and others.good luck

If your current psychologist doesn't understand how serious it is, can you try again to explain? If you become like a different person when you have a rage attack, he would not have seen that "person". I used to get overwhelmed with rage sometimes. I could "turn if off", at least temporarily, by going numb and "stuffing my feelings", but that's not the answer either.

I didn't really understand it myself, so when I tried to explain to psychologists they didn't get it, either. And when I got enraged at a psychologist, to try to "express" my feelings rather than turn them off, the psychologist reacted in fear and didn't know what to do! My understanding at the time was that getting mad was "bad" but I did not understand that, or why, the psychologist would react in fear because I had numbed out or dissociated from my own fear reaction to people's anger due to childhood trauma.

Eventually I found a specialist in trauma and dissociative disorders who has helped. And now I understand but I didn't then.

I'm not sure that an inpatient evaluation would help but if your psychologist still doesn't "get it" after you try again to explain, can you look for another? Also looking up "rage" and "rage treatment" on a search engine may bring up some ideas you can relate to.

That's a great reply. I hope you're okay and thank you

Hey thank you for the reply and advice. That's scary though. My doctor made me see another psychiatrist soon because I'm not doing so great on my own, so we'll talk about it.