[skittles]

im mean... i cant seem to be nice..... its so hard for me..... why do i snap at everyone... i know ppl dont like me cause i dont even like myself half the time..... sometimes i wish i could run away from me..... i asked my b/f the other day why he likes me because im mean and he said i just do..... i wish i could be nicer.. atleast to him and my family....

[tranquility]

Skittles,

Sometimes it's hard, but you are aware you are snapping, so next time you're feeling tense, think about that before you say something. Eventually you will get it under control.

Tranquility

[skittles]

na i dont realize it till i do it.. ive been like this my whole life.. not sure ill ever be able to control it....

<font color="#000088"> It seems to me that you are like I used to be. That you have this wall up that you can't even get through anymore,because it's been up for so long that you don't even want to see behind it anymore.
But Maybe your B/F can see behind it,and that could be why he likes you,because he knows the real you that's behind that wall.

It's not too late,because my wall has been coming down a little at a time,as I've gotten older,and found people I could trust that weren't out to harm me. It took awhile,but it's a slow process,and my wall is still there but in pieces where I can allow certain people in,and the abusive one's out.

Don't give up,there is always room for change.I'm still working on it myself. </font>

[Fuzzybear]

Good post Justice!!

I used to be similar to how you describe skittles (with some people anyway). Like Justice said, there is always room for change

PM me if you like, I found some good tools to work with this sort of stuff........