[Noitartst]

Look at the two staircases:

(from The Seeker (dot) org -- New Life Behavior Int.)

Ultimately, I've been suffering from an inability to trust others, and it has led to isolation. Previously, I highlighted fear, but in this case, rather than boiling it down to an emotion, it boils down to a belief.

Looking over the stages of grief, I see that before I fell into apathy, which froze the process, I was caught between the stages of anger, and bargaining. I could, and can, accept the reality of my family being wrong, but that was not encouraged, leading to stalemate.

Ultimately, it all led back to my inability to trust neither myself, nor others, which I am now working on. I have been striving towards this, but never saw it mapped out on the stairs, before.

How to I get on the right staircase, anyhow, and how do I find someone that can help me with this kinda work?

Nope. I'm at the bottom of the down staircase.

I don't trust myself these days. I do things and don't know why. I do things without knowing.

I grieve. I've been deeply grieving for, let's see, over 19 years. I don't know whose stages of grief that you referenced, but I've been through them all, never staying at any one for long but unable to stop the ride.

I hope that someone can help you. I'm of no use to anyone, pitiful me.

[here today]

Good diagram, very clear. I've lost trust in myself and everybody, too. How does one get that back? I have no idea.

[M3233]

Originally Posted by ciderguy

I hope that someone can help you. I'm of no use to anyone, pitiful me.

You most certainly are of use!

[Noitartst]

Well, I think I see the way out for myself, and am getting on the off-ramp, best as I can manage.

I think I'm on the right track, even as I have doubts.

[CrimsonSigmaRick]

Originally Posted by M3233

You most certainly are of use!

Don't tell them that when you genuinely don't know lol.