[applekid]

Hello thank you for clicking on my thread I'm sorry if it's too long and boring for you.. But if it's not please help me thank you
Right now I feel like nothing and my life is a complete waste. I'm extremely scared about the future. I'm 16 and I'm in 11th grade. Every day when I wake up the only things I look forward to are seeing my friends and family, eating, and sleeping. School is lonely for me. I cant tell if my friends actually like me or not. It seems like people want nothing to do with me. Also I've never had a boyfriend but I guess that's not really important My grades are horrible. There's no way I can go to college and even if I could, I'm terrible at school related stuff so I would probably hate it. I don't think I could get a job either. I'm not good at anything at all, I'm bad at talking to people, and I don't like doing anything. When I was younger I liked drawing but that's slowly going away. Also I know it sounds ridiculous but it was always my dream to be able to create some kind of comic or game that people really love and makes people feel something but I don't think I'll never be able to do it. I'll never be able to do anything or be anything. Especially when I see people like Hayao Miyazi or Toby Fox and I see how much people love them and love what they've done and I love them too it's just I know I'll never be like them. I want to be somebody special or important but I'm not. I'm just going to keep living quietly and I'll die quietly without doing anything at all..
Well anyway thank you for reading my nonsense. I'm not exactly sure how I wanted someone to help me but I'm just so lost. I feel like I have no future. Only more bad things can happen from here. I'm scared. I want to believe it when people say things will get better but I've been waiting for things to be better and trying to make them better my whole life and every day things get worse. Not just for me but I cause problems for my family too. Well if there's anything you can tell me at all I would appreciate it. thank you

[Dont_Follow]

Hi there.

You are being very very hard on yourself. I suggest you read this and apply it to what you've written: http://forums.psychcentral.com/psych...bout-them.html

You can go to college, even if your grades are horrible. You don't even need to graduate high school (although you should work hard to graduate). With even a GED, you can enroll at a community college. This is what people should be doing anyway, because you can get your first 2 years done for a tiny fraction of the cost and it counts just the same. From there you can transfer to a university for your remaining 2 years.

I thought I was terrible at school as well, but when I got to college I realized I actually just didn't have any motivation during high school and my mental state was keeping me from doing well. Based on your post, I highly suspect the same is true for you. You don't even have to be smart to do well in college, you just have to do the work. You can certainly do that.

I don't think I could get a job either. I'm not good at anything at all, I'm bad at talking to people, and I don't like doing anything.

I felt exactly the same way for the longest time. I am terrible at talking to people and the only thing I ever liked doing was playing video games. Eventually I decided to go into IT, and I think that will be perfect for me. You don't need to absolutely love your job, I would say what's important is simply having a job that will allow you to do the things you want in your life outside of work. You have time to figure this out and you will.

Do you see a therapist? Talking about all this with a therapist could help you a ton. I realize the thought of doing that is intimidating, but it isn't as bad as it sounds.

Talk to your school guidance counselor. You are old enough to take your health into your own hands. So, make an appointment with your famiy doctor. They can evaluate you and, if they feel it is needed, refer you to additional help like a psychiatrist.

[Lazarus16]

Applekid, I will go in the same direction as Dont_Follow, you are EXTREMELY hard on yourself. Never think of yourself as nothing, if you were nothing, you wouldn't exist. To me, you sound like a great person but you have very low self-esteem and self-confidence.

I think you'd make a great video game level designer or a great anything that is creative and where you create stuff. You have the passion and the youth.

There are good reasons to be scared but never let fear stop you from getting what you want. It's normal to feel a little stress, it can bring out the best in you but not so much it keeps you from doing what you love.

For your friends, ask them. Tell them you feel down and want to know if they like you, any true friend will understand and answer yes.

Life and being healthy are the biggest gifts of life. Happiness is in the little things. Go run in a flowers field, let the wind caress your cheeks, smell the rich aroma of life, enjoy beauty in the beautiful colors that stand before our very eyes.

Having a boyfriend is REALLY important my dear, if you find a guy that will truly love you for who you are, will support you in the time of need and make you feel like you're on top of the world, trust me, you will understand the meaning of ''tears of joy''. I haven't had a girlfriend in a long time and I miss it. We all need love, that we like to admit it or not and you're at the age of innocent love too. When you'll be older, things get more complicated, you have more responsibilities and less time for things out of a fairy tale. Enjoy your innocence as much as possible, it's very important. As I said earlier, happiness is in the little things. When you'll find your chosen one, don't be afraid to show how you love him, don't be shy, I believe if everyone stopped being shy, it would be SO MUCH EASIER for people to get in a relationship. Live your love life the way YOU want to live it and live it fully. Have no regrets.

It's okay if your grades are horrible right now. You are in a bad place. Trust me, when you'll have made changes in your life, found some peace, found some equilibrium, your grades will improve. If you don't study much, I invite you to study a solid 1 to 2 hours a night. I know it's not as fun as leisures but it will make all the difference. Ask for help. Your teachers might not be the greatest teachers but they will always be willing to help you. Remember, they are paid for that. If they refuse to do their job, go talk with the principal. Don't be afraid to make yourself respected otherwise, others will walk on you.

You can get to college if you improve your grades, it's possible. Billions did it before you, why couldn't you? Talking with people is a question of practice. The more you'll talk with people, the more you'll feel confident and it's a vicious circle, a GOOD vicious circle but a vicious circle nonetheless. lol Billions got jobs before you, why couldn't you? What I'm trying to show you with these ''why couldn't you?'', is that there is always 2 sides of the medal. One of is much more positive than the other, remember it.

You like drawing, you like creating things, you see, you like doing things. I'm sure you like other things, you just don't know it yet. Try new sports, try new hobbies. Don't say you don't something before try it, no excuses and no exception!

You can't predict the future little apple, you're not an actuary and even actuary make mistakes. You might live to become a billionaire like Donald J. Trump, you don't know. Bill Gates was a dropout and he became the richest man on Earth.

Don't wait for things to happen by themselves, this is not how it works. Make things happen. People fear rejection and failures but these two things make you learn from your mistakes, make you become better. The most successful people of all-time failed hundreds and thousands of times, think Walt Disney and many others.

THAT, is ONE LONG POST! LOL I hope it will help you in your quest, take good care of yourself and I wish you all the best.

PS. Do talk to your school counselor, like justafriend306 said. There are social workers too, they can help you find the best resources available for you. Support lines are great when you feel down, don't be shy to call them. Also, feel free to PM if you want, it will be my pleasure to help you more.

[karen1]

Stay strong, these are tough years for many, I know this as my daughter suffers as you are. These years will pass as you move into the next phase of your life, take one day at a time, allow yourself to forgive you.
Try to connect with your family as deep down they are on your side, and will be there for you even if their understanding isn't always great.
Also please do one thing for yourself, any sentence or thought that begins with "I can't" needs to end with "yet"! When I was young I couldn't drive, did that mean I could never drive? No it just meant that I couldn't drive yet, because I wasn't old enough yet and because I hadn't learnt yet, I can drive now though. So forgive yourself for what you haven't achieved yet as there is a lot more to come still, with a lot of "yets" to be accomplished. You are in my thoughts and I am hoping for better days ahead for you.

[Marylin]

Hi applekid,
I just want you to know I care and it looks like lots of others here care about you.
If it helps you to know when I was your age I felt exactly like you,I was bad at schoolwork too and didn't have any friends and I felt alone,lonely and that nobody cared.I want you to know it is common to feel like you haven't got anything in you at your age and to have no direction and nothing to aim for.Try not to feel that what you are going through now is it for the rest of your life cos it's not,things will change,you will go on to have experiences that will change you and your life for the better.Believe it,it is true!Best wishes to you!Marylinx