[lark265]

do YOU ever feel like just giving up? sometimes (like now) I feel like screw this - I've been trying to roll this rock up this hill for too long now. Trying to do the "right thing." Without success. Still feel like Hell. Stopped drinking, taking meds, seeing therapist, exercising, praying.....but still discouraged. I feel sometimes that I am just weak.....that others face this same stuff but are able to cope. Thus they are stronger than I am. Come on Greg, cowboy up!! No, I can't anymore. But just when I feel like wimping out, like throwing in the towel, admitting defeat, I find out there's no one there to catch me....so if I give up, I just am giving up alone....scary. I don't want to go live in a psych ward for the rest of my life. But what the heck else can I do? Tired of keeping on keeping on.....what do you do?

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by lark265

do YOU ever feel like just giving up? sometimes (like now) I feel like screw this - I've been trying to roll this rock up this hill for too long now. Trying to do the "right thing." Without success. Still feel like Hell. Stopped drinking, taking meds, seeing therapist, exercising, praying.....but still discouraged. I feel sometimes that I am just weak.....that others face this same stuff but are able to cope. Thus they are stronger than I am. Come on Greg, cowboy up!! No, I can't anymore. But just when I feel like wimping out, like throwing in the towel, admitting defeat, I find out there's no one there to catch me....so if I give up, I just am giving up alone....scary. I don't want to go live in a psych ward for the rest of my life. But what the heck else can I do? Tired of keeping on keeping on.....what do you do?

I'm right there with you asking myself the same questions. One of the things I ask myself is, "who would take my place? Who would step up and do all that I do?" The answer is NO ONE. That's what keeps me going. There's bound to be more people than you know who would go down with you if you give up. ( That's what I keep telling myself anyway.)
Of course you're tired! We wake up every day to fight the same battles we fought yesterday! Give yourself time to heal, to rest and regroup. It's ok to take time for yourself. It's self-preservation. If you don't take time to care for yourself you'll never be able to take care of anything else. Take care cowboy!

[Crazy Hitch]

Yes.

I totally feel like **** it all right now.

*kicks bucket*

I have hope. The amount varies so much though...

I DO feel like giving up, a lot. I am learning to give time a chance to pass and then maybe I will feel like resuming the climb again.

I don't think there's a rule, written or unwritten, that says you can't rest occasionally.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Greg

I completely agree with the time to rest, time to heal
And I'd also suggest a little less of the holding things in/bottling things up, trying to live up to others expectations, comparing yourself to others........??
If you're hurting you're hurting, and that matters...........and the fact that you're struggling as you are doesn't make you weak, some of the strongest people on the planet can be severely limited by depression/MI..........and some others who who just easily cope despite whatever.........I wouldn't necessarily call them stronger, I'd more say they were fortunate not to have to experience the crushing feelings of..........
So keep on talking about it as you are, hey??
Sometimes finding the right help/support can make a real big difference, or at least make those "hard times" just a little easier...........and maybe we can help a little with that/on your road forward??
And hey, with all this cowboy up "stuff", it must have taken a lot to start speaking out as you are........so I'm impressed, you're clearly already on that road in identifying and talking about issues andthat's such an important start
And........hoping that you stick with us for support on a journey to feeling better

One last thing though , the "cowboy up" just brought this to mind:

Maybe it could resonate............???



Alison

[BLUEDOVE]

No,no,no,don't give up! You may be making the "whole
of,part of error". This is when you have a problem and
think it is ALL of you,when it is only a PART of you!
You're only listening to the one instrument--what about
the REST of the symphony of life?
Courage,
BLUEDOVE

[lark265]

[quote=Frankbtl;5116325]Hi Greg

I completely agree with the time to rest, time to heal
And I'd also suggest a little less of the holding things in/bottling things up, trying to live up to others expectations, comparing yourself to others........??
If you're hurting you're hurting, and that matters...........and the fact that you're struggling as you are doesn't make you weak, some of the strongest people on the planet can be severely limited by depression/MI..........and some others who who just easily cope despite whatever.........I wouldn't necessarily call them stronger, I'd more say they were fortunate not to have to experience the crushing feelings of..........
So keep on talking about it as you are, hey??
Sometimes finding the right help/support can make a real big difference, or at least make those "hard times" just a little easier...........and maybe we can help a little with that/on your road forward??
And hey, with all this cowboy up "stuff", it must have taken a lot to start speaking out as you are........so I'm impressed, you're clearly already on that road in identifying and talking about issues andthat's such an important start
And........hoping that you stick with us for support on a journey to feeling better

One last thing though , the "cowboy up" just brought this to mind:

Maybe it could resonate............???

thinking about "what is mental illness"? I don't really have a great definition but I DO KNOW that it hurts......a lot. I don't like asking for help but perhaps it would be a good idea. my mind tells me, "what can those people (therapists, etc.) know that I don't know?" Good question. Probably nothing. How can a stranger know more about how my mind functions than I do? How do you trust someone with so much? The whole thing just pisses me off.

[SvanThor]

I think at some point, everyone kind of feels like they want to give up. I tried to give up numerous times, but after so many failed attempts I realized that I really didn't want to be dead. Don't ever give up. Life is so painful and it can screw you time and time again, but it's up to you to make things better for yourself. Hold your head up, man. You're going to get better.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Greg

thinking about "what is mental illness"? I don't really have a great definition but I DO KNOW that it hurts......a lot. I don't like asking for help but perhaps it would be a good idea. my mind tells me, "what can those people (therapists, etc.) know that I don't know?" Good question. Probably nothing. How can a stranger know more about how my mind functions than I do? How do you trust someone with so much? The whole thing just pisses me off.

Well I'd say it depends on who you share with as to what you might get back:
Some people might be able to share some real good insight with the advantage of seeing things "from the outside"/subjectively..........
Some people might be able to give/teach you new tools/exercises which could help at times..........
Some people might have the benefit of/knowledge from lots of research telling them what might/might not work.............
Some people might have seen personally, from experience, what might help people feeling the way you do...................
Some people might be able to throw various different suggestions your way, for you to choose "what fits"...............
Some people aren't going to declare that they know anything, but can support/guide you in finding "answers" within yourself towards a better future...........
Some people may give you that supported/safe place to really delve into and confront some of those "tough" thoughts/feelings.............
Some people might give you empathy..........understanding...........encouragement............motivation...........whatever you need at that moment to help you towards a "better place".............
Kind of like the different input you can get from different people on here actually ...........
But often it'll ultimately be about empowering you to move forward, or making the darker times less so...............

And how to trust...........well that should be at your pace...........and they should work at actually earning that trust

But, the not wanting to ask for help.............like a lot of people I'm guessing you'd feel that would say about you that you were vulnerable, weak, powerless, less in control, couldn't cope...........??
But personally I'd say it can indicate the exact reverse if you choose to do it............it can take/show a lot of strength to ask for help, it can be a sign you're trying to take more control of what's going on for you, it can be about you "fighting back" against the "demons"...........
So, NEVER any shame in asking for help, I'd in fact say it was admirable
So, if nothing else right now, keep on talking on here, hey??

Alison

[handheart]

I understand how you feel but life its a constant battle and its a word that a winner never give up no matter how hard it will be .But someone who give up its defeat it