WoW where do I begin. I guess first off I have such a horrible time socially, mainly because of what I preseve in other people. I went to the mall today, gosh I had been dreding it all week but my parents insisted I go shop for some new clothes. Between seeing all the happy faces, and my parents complaining as usual about money when we are fincially fine in my terms (we spend extrra on wants not needs to me until we cant do that we're fine) I about broke down.

My depression has seemed to evolved into a social problem too, I fear humans, so so bad, I see them living THEIR life, with THEIR personality, and I have yet to..I don't even know who I am, I dont seem to have what others do,..political views,religous views, moral quality, etc..I'm just human...an ab-normal human seemingly since I feel so outcasted. Even with my peers which are teens I feel...yucky about doing things they do..so i guess that is a moral..I dunno...I wish..so so badly..that I had a worth in the world, a way to be respected as we all are supposed to and be loved for just the way I am....i hope i find me...sometime soon..

dustin

[sassypants]

I am really sorry you are going through this. I hope things
get better for you.


Please take care

dustin........the road to finding "who we are" is a long one.....i'm not sure that the journey ever ends but as i read your post...i smiled........because whether you realize it or not dustin.......you are walking down life's road.....you are discovering yourself.......you are finding you........and what i know in my heart is that you will be a success dustin because you don't give upi.....you will have all that you wish for someday but what you should know is that you already have alot of worth in this world.....you are respected for being the good man that you are and you are loved just for being you and when the day comes that you find your partner in life..she will be one very lucky lady.....

[eskielover]

Dustin,

What you are going through is called growing up. The things you are thinking is a very good thing.....you are trying to establish your own values, your own identity, figuring out your own thoughts. This is the most important part of growth.....& if it isn't done at this point in life, it is even harder to do later on.

These are things my husband never delt with when he was young.....he didn't even think about those things & now they are bitting him in the rear at the age of 55. They are issues that you need to be solid with before getting you life involved with another, so that you know who you are. I ask him questions like you are thinking about & all I get is an "I don't know" answer. It is not an overnight process......but it is a valuable part of life that you will never regret going through. It is also a process that continues throughout life in order to be able to adapt to what life throws at you......just having these questions in your mind & recognizing that they have to be answered is the best place to start. You can only be successful on the path you are on.....even though it is rough. Putting the energy into your life will pay off & make you a stronger person, able to handle what your in store for you.

Sounds like you are on the right path, so just keep plugging along......you are doing great,
Debbie

[lessthansign3]

I'm sorry you are having such a terrible time I know it's difficult now, but things will get better with time.

[pachyderm]

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WoW where do I begin. I guess first off I have such a horrible time socially, mainly because of what I preseve in other people. I went to the mall today, gosh I had been dreding it all week but my parents insisted I go shop for some new clothes. Between seeing all the happy faces, and my parents complaining as usual about money when we are fincially fine in my terms (we spend extrra on wants not needs to me until we cant do that we're fine) I about broke down.

My depression has seemed to evolved into a social problem too, I fear humans, so so bad, I see them living THEIR life, with THEIR personality, and I have yet to..I don't even know who I am, I dont seem to have what others do,..political views,religous views, moral quality, etc..I'm just human...an ab-normal human seemingly since I feel so outcasted. Even with my peers which are teens I feel...yucky about doing things they do..so i guess that is a moral..I dunno...I wish..so so badly..that I had a worth in the world, a way to be respected as we all are supposed to and be loved for just the way I am....i hope i find me...sometime soon..

dustin

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Sometimes I hate or fear smiley faces -- especially when they are on other people and are demanded of me. Lots of people seem to be afraid of other people's fears, and make them suffer more for it. I think not being smiley must be respected too.