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My primary medical doctor is gonna kill me! Figuratively speaking, of course. A cut on my leg is infected. It was deep and needed stitches, but due to the SI cause and fact that the numbing shot hurts like a B*, I didn't. There is no redness on the outside, so the pus and infection must be deep inside. Last I heard, the only treatment would be inpatient for IV antibiotics. I sent one of my usual "illegal emails" to my doc right away to tell him and ask him to open up a quick appointment for me online. I don't want to go through the ER. To me it would be better going through my primary doc and being sent there from the office at least. I'll be subject to less judgment that way cause I know he'd talk to them about me. Maybe he won't send me there, but last I heard it sounded like cuts that needed but didn't get stitches and are infected, get treated in-hospital because they are deep and could cause septicemia, which would be very, very bad. Of course. I found out my primary doc's personal home email addy on the internet and sent a "bcc" copy to that address also! <insert devil smile here> That way in case he doesn't check his work email, he will still know I need an "urgent" appointment opened up. Sigh. I know that I'm in trouble now. Whether I get sent to the hospital or not, I'm in trouble. Thank goodness he's got a sense of humor.

[okiedokie]

Hi Inky,
Don't think of it as "being in trouble." You really do need to get in there ASAP because a deep infection like that is VERY dangerous as you know.

I wouldn't wait very long for a return email. If you go into the ER they will CALL your doctor.

I'm sorry you've had such a hard time of late. Please do take care of that infection right away and keep us posted. You are very cared about here!!
XXOO,
Okie

[debbie_tabor]

Good luck with all that! Hope it works out. Even from personal experience I never understand why SI doesn't bother us but things like injections do! Be brave!
Debbie

<font color="#000088">Okie's right, you really need to think about taking care of you right now,and not worry about whether you're in trouble or not. Because if you don't get it taken care of A.S.A.P. than you really could be in trouble, medically speaking! Don't worry about what the doctors or nurses are going to think, just get that taken care of before it gets even worse. You really need to think of you right now, and forget about what others might think. I think you should get to the ER! And I send my best regards with you that everything goes okay, and that you'll be alright. Just take good care,and keep us posted because we really do care, okay!!!!!
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I know that I won't really be "in trouble" because he's good and I know he cares. And he knows that I've been off Adderall. (You can bet they will order the drug while I'd be inpatient if it goes that route! LOL) I won't be getting a reply email from him because it's not allowed--I'm not supposed to even know his email address! That's why I called it an "illegal email". You made me think, though. I already know the ER would call him anyway. But still, in case he doesn't go online til Sunday night, that would be too late for me to go online and make an appointment for first thing Monday. I'd end up going in probably on Tuesday then. I might just see if I can page my doctor or if he is on-call, or maybe I'll just take a bus to the ER. I would go the the hospital my doctor is at--not the local one which is *crap*. The north shore hospital system is the best! I call the ER docs at the local place "PlaySkool Docs"--they graduated from PlaySkool and were given toy doctor kits for graduation! They are *THAT* bad! But their prescriptions are real and legal.

[bebop]

I don't think you should wait. you don't have to tell them it was SI. get it done asap hon!

[drummergrl]

Inky!!!
Did you do that to yourself???? WHY???????? If you are in a chrises, you should be the hospital for your own good. What if that infection turns gangrene???? It's possible, you know???? Get to that ER soon as you can and stop whining.......................if you are brave enough to do that, then be brave enough to get it treated!!!!! Take care of you.....Inky.

[inkblot]

Thanks, all. It didn't take much more thought and I decided to page the doctor and ask him if he thought it could wait for an appointment or not. He thought not. It wasn't my own doc who was on-call, but I did admit to him the cut was self-inflicted with a razor blade. So...I eventually and *barely* was able to get there yesterday. I forgot about the almost non-existant weekend bus service and cut-in-half train schedule when I told the doc which ER I would go to. The ER doc looked at it, had it cleaned, gave me a prescripton for oral antibiotics and I left. Now my problem is getting back. I will have to stay in town here for another night and go back on the bus tomorrow when they are all running. I can't get my antibiotic filled till then.

[eskielover]

I am so glad that you took care of the cut & hope that you can get the prescription filled ASAP. Guessing they gave you an antibiotic shot in the hospital to give it a kick start to last until you get the prescription filled.

I think it is so sad that no one is caring for the real problems you have. The SI is better when you have the adderall. Why is it that you can't get a prescription for it. It kind of sounded like in your post, you were really hoping that you would be put into the hospital where they "you can bet they would order the drug while I would be inpatient". I know if it were me, that would be what I would be hoping for. I would be hoping that someone would care enough to help me with what I really need help with. It sounds to me that all the emails you are sending out to your PCP are calls for help that aren't being delt with.

I know my PCP didn't want to get involved with my psych issues when I was dealing with the anorexia that happened when I was dealing with my Mothers death & the ID theft & abuse the home care person did. He would only deal with the medical issues surrounding it, but he did refer me to a pdoc & psychologist while I was in the hospital until I got out & could get back to my own.....but if I hadn't had my own, he would have made sure I would have gotten the help I needed.

I haven't read enough of your posts to know why you don't have the psych help you need since is sounds like your PCP won't prescribe you the adderall you desparately need. I am sure that being in the living situation you are in doesn't help either, but I know that in California there are clinics that can help (don't know about in KY where I am moving to) & don't know about in Iowa, but there should be someplace to go for the help you need.

You have gone through so many extreme emotional things lately, it is impossible for anyone to deal with everything you have gone through & are going through without help. It sounds to me like your PCP needs to guide you to where you can get the help you really need & that help is beyond what a PCP is capable of giving. Maybe you need to sit down with him & figure out a plan to get the help you need.

My prayers are with you,
Debbie

<font color="#000088">Thats great! You got it taken care of,and the best part was that you were honest with the Doctor about it being self-inflicted. That gives the doctor more reason to trust you in the future when you need help! It's always important to be honest with your Doctors, in order for them to treat you properly. Just don't forget to get those anti-biotics filled, those are very important, mainly because of what caused the injury (the razor)! One of the reasons it's important for them to know what caused the injury, is so they can asses whether you would need a Tetanus shot or not! So it was really good for you to be honest with them! And everything turned out okay, they didn't lock you up,or treat you bad. Things worked out better than you thought they would. But I'm proud of you for having the strength to be honest about it, and go in and just get it done!
Sorry your stuck for the night because of transportation, but it's better than being hospitalized,don't you think?
Good for you though,for getting yourself taken care of!
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