Sigh I guess

After searching the entirety of the internet, twice, I have come up short. I have no feelings, no emotions, no idea what they're even like. And there's nothing I can do except stare at the nothingness that is life. I have literally tried everything with little results, I just want to know what these things called emotions are and how you all describe them so. It just seems like I'm missing out, and well, yes, this is just a rant. Life goes on... and on and on. Like a roller coaster with no ups or downs, just going around in a circle. I've tried explaining my situation but no one seems to listen, not that there's anything that can be done. It sucks, just a living camera, no soul, a spirit watching endlessly at everything in complete isolation. -.-

Are you under professional care? Are you taking medication?

I ask because it occurs to me that medications might be causing this. My other thought is that this is a case of depression. And then this might be a symptom of something else - hence my enquiring as to doctor's care.

I sort of am, but the meds I've taken have had no effect. It's not depression, I've been without any emotions since I was 6, and when I was 15 I discovered what happiness feels like, and I've felt it a small handful of times since. I've been trying very hard to feel anything, and have succeeded a few times. Weed is the only thing that helps, though I only feel either numb or black on it.

Actually, you sound morose and very concerned. Those are emotions. Please see a pdoc and a therapist.

This reminds me of that Johnny Cash song, Hurt. If meds aren't helping you gotta tell your dr. Hope you feel better.

Do you mean emotions in general, like sadness, anger, happiness, ... etc, or just positive ones? You seem upset (which is an emotion) to not have emotions.