[lauraloo1986]

I've been depressed about where I am in life, especially when it comes to my job because I thought I'd be somewhere else by now. I've been stuck in retail for several years, and though my job title is something I actually like doing, i feel like i havent been able to do the job I was hired to do. A lot of my coworkers feel that way too. But my anxiety has been showing its ugly head at work lately to the point where I just dont want to go in. In fact Im supposed to be there right now but I called off yesterday and today bc I just feel miserable but I'm also worried I might get in trouble.

On top of that, I had a big fight with my best friend on friday and Im not sure it can be salvaged. In a way I kind of felt relieved bc I've been feeling like maybe we need to take a break, our values are just not really the same. We're two completely different people and lately we've become sort of argumentative in terms of politics when we hang out (we have differences in terms of politics and religion). Because of what's going on in the world it's just become harder and harder and that seems to have come to a head this past weekend. Because of it I havent felt very happy to hang out with her bc I dont want to get into another argument. Maybe it's time to let go?

I've been trying to figure out what does and does not make me happy, and making efforts to change that. Been wanting to find a new job in a career that might be a better fit. I have a degree in graphic design so I'm starting there, the only problem is I havent updated my portfolio in so long. It's hard to sit down and focus on that. Seems there is too much going on in my life right now.

Anyway, I just wanted to open up somehow, get this off my chest. I cant really talk to my friend about it, and my parents arent the best at talking about emotions or listening. I could talk to my oldest sister but she thinks Im sick bc I told her I called out today, and I just feel like it'd be a burden.

Not sure what to do. Dreading going to work tomorrow but I cant call out for a third time. All I want to do is sleep and/or cry but thats probably not the most useful way to deal.

Anyway, that's all. Thanks for listening

Hello lauraloo....

I would say that if your job is making you sick...then it's time to look for something different.
It might not be your dream job, but at least it will be a change, right? New things to think about? New people to meet?

I think once you make the decision to look, then you'll be happier with the knowledge that you're doing a positive thing for yourself....

Let things cool down with your friend. We all need a break from people from time to time.

[Rizzar]

Hello, lauraloo1986. Sorry life is difficult for you now. I wish you well.

[19J82]

It sounds like you're going through a tricky time at the moment, but looking for people to chat to about it is a good thing (ie posting on here).
You mention depression and anxiety in your post; have you spoken to a Dr about these issues? It may be that speaking things through with a doc or therapist might help.
Whatever happens, remember that you're not alone, and that there are many, many good people on here who are always happy to chat and listen to problems. My life's just fallen apart but I'm trying to start again, and listening to people who've been through similar is a big help.
Good luck with it

[MickeyCheeky]

Feel free to talk with us and I'm sorry life isn't being kind to you

[lauraloo1986]

Originally Posted by 19J82

It sounds like you're going through a tricky time at the moment, but looking for people to chat to about it is a good thing (ie posting on here).
You mention depression and anxiety in your post; have you spoken to a Dr about these issues? It may be that speaking things through with a doc or therapist might help.
Whatever happens, remember that you're not alone, and that there are many, many good people on here who are always happy to chat and listen to problems. My life's just fallen apart but I'm trying to start again, and listening to people who've been through similar is a big help.
Good luck with it

I had a therapist for the first time last summer, but I ended it after a couple months because she seemed to never remember anything about our previous sessions, or kept wanting to schedule me at times I was unavailable even though I told her several times what my availability was. Been meaning to find a new therapist, just havent gotten around to it.

[19J82]

Originally Posted by lauraloo1986

I had a therapist for the first time last summer, but I ended it after a couple months because she seemed to never remember anything about our previous sessions, or kept wanting to schedule me at times I was unavailable even though I told her several times what my availability was. Been meaning to find a new therapist, just havent gotten around to it.

Unfortunately life gets in the way sometimes, I have the same problem! And funnily enough I meant to have a look for a local therapist close to me today but didn't manage it. I've not had one before so it's a bit of a leap into the unknown. It sounds like your last one was no good at all; would anyone you know be able to recommend one?

[lauraloo1986]

Originally Posted by 19J82

Unfortunately life gets in the way sometimes, I have the same problem! And funnily enough I meant to have a look for a local therapist close to me today but didn't manage it. I've not had one before so it's a bit of a leap into the unknown. It sounds like your last one was no good at all; would anyone you know be able to recommend one?

a friend of mine had suggested her therapist at one point but I'm not sure I'd want the same therapist as a friend...but from what I've disovered there arent a whole lot of options that Im seeing where I live, unless Im just not looking hard enough. We shall see. I definitely would recommend it though. Even if it didnt quite work out for the first time, it did feel really good to finally be able to talk to someone about pretty much anything. Therapy itself is definitely worth it.

[19J82]

Originally Posted by lauraloo1986

a friend of mine had suggested her therapist at one point but I'm not sure I'd want the same therapist as a friend...but from what I've disovered there arent a whole lot of options that Im seeing where I live, unless Im just not looking hard enough. We shall see. I definitely would recommend it though. Even if it didnt quite work out for the first time, it did feel really good to finally be able to talk to someone about pretty much anything. Therapy itself is definitely worth it.

Ah, I can understand why you might be reluctant about sharing a therapist but if they're good and there's a lack of decent ones I guess you may have to compromise.
I think I should have probably gone to one years ago as I've got so much stuff going on. Now I have a diagnosis and a vague understanding of what's going on in my head I think it's a real necessity to talk things through.