WTF is wrong with me ???

-Astral- · Jun 29, 2017, 04:53 PM

dont know what the ****ing is wrong with me i dont know if am manic or something but something isn't right according to other people am going from one thing to another religious wise i thought that i could have OCD but av never been diagnosed with OCD but the last two weeks things have gone from being Manic to being depressed to being manic wanting to change my mind over and over about things on top of that i hear voices and see things when am depressed and manic my husband is my full time carer and am driving him up the wall with changing my ****ing mind all the time i have racing thoughts as well and i have been so depressed at point where i dont want to get out of bed i have Borderline personalty disorder i was diagnosed 10 years ago normally i dont go from one thing to another very fast i thought i have OCD because my obsession is religions i got from one thing to another and i seems to move on again 30 mins later av been taking new medication for Obsessions for the last 2 months am unsure if it because of that or if it something else
i have to take more of my prns that normally help me to stay calm because of anxiety my husband says am up and down alot the last few days i have made an appointment with my dr but its not until Thursday i would have made an emergency appointment with any dr but they will not do anything about my meds and i would like to see my psych but i dont have an appointment until august unsure if i should go to the mental hospital in the mean time to see if they can do anything about this its made my husband unwell as well he is so stressed right now unsure if he is going to be ok keep thinking he going to take a heart attack or stroke he is 30 am 40 he seems in good health but the stress will not help him he cant take anymore of me being like this and its a long time until Thursday

Sunflower123 · Jun 30, 2017, 03:03 AM

Thursday is along way away. If you can't get them to let you in any sooner than Thursday on an emergency basis, I encourage you to go to your local mental hospital to get checked out...for your sake and your husband's. This doesn't sound like OCD. You need to be seen sooner rather than later. Good luck and best wishes.

-Astral- · Jun 30, 2017, 05:26 AM

my husband called the places where in see my psych hoping to get an emergency appointment but they might not get back to us today ment to be meeting my mum unsure if i can keep calm there she thinks am attention seeking most of the time anyway if i get the phone call to go in today she will be pissed am meeting her at 2 pm if they call and tell me to get there at 3 or 4 pm my husband and i will have to run back here and see my psych but my husband says it unlikely that shew ill get an appointment today

iLLuMiNaTi · Jun 30, 2017, 12:01 PM

bipolar ?

avlady · Jun 30, 2017, 12:17 PM

I wish you wel and will pray you can get an appointment as soon as possible. I know the feeling its alot of anxiety in it too. Try to sleep if you can if you can't get in right away, sometimes all we need is a good nights sleep but i know its a hard thing to do too. good luck!!

-Astral- · 03:16 PM

the people who run the centre for where i see my psych gave my husband some Valium to do me for the weekend if things are still the same over the weekend unsure what they will do but i cant wait until i see my dr my psych might see me sooner next week but she wasn't at the centre today and couldn't help me but she can next week ...ill try and go to bed earlier tonight , hopefully i get some sleep but it feels unlikely as am kinda a bit manic already and its not even 8 pm yet