Whenever I go out, I want to stay outside and never return home.
But when I do return home, my energies are drained. I start to become more bitter and negative.

What can I do at home to change this?
How can I spend more time outside, considering my current goal is to create lots of music for instance?
It can even change how I talk to people over the phone.

Is it being alone that bothers you? Or something else? For me, I have lived in the same house a long time, with people who remind me of things I don't want to remember. So, I feel I am drained and don't want to be there because of that. Regardless, good luck finding ways to stay out of your house more often. I hope people can have some suggestions for you.

[Sunflower123]

Are you old enough to move out? I think you'd feel much better. You're not alone. I feel the same way about where and who I live with. Sending big hugs.

[Turtle_Rider]

I'm at that situation too.

Why? Because there is something in your home bothering you.
To change it, I don't know. It depends on your home situation.
Agreed with Jennifer. Are you able to move out? If not, saves from now. At the moment you can go to cafe, 7-11, library, or friend house for creating music. Then go home for night sleep.
Or move your laptop to another room. Maybe it helps.

[MickeyCheeky]

Perhaps you could give you some breaks to go outside; for example, every hour or so you could go out for a walk. Do you think that might work?

Some very good recommendations here.

In my case getting out was very attractive but I found it hard to do so. It wasn't that I lacked motivation. It was that I was uncomfortable with the unknown and staying inside just seemed easier. Though, once I was out it was great. It was enjoyable and I often didn't want it to end.

Some great CBT helped improve my sense of worth. I realised I was worth feeling good and that I even owed it to myself to take the steps to do so.

I am still not very good with being spontaneous. In fact it is a problem. What I have been doing though is planning ventures out. I have several regular coffee dates. I try to plan at least one trek out on my own. If I have to go or be somewhere I plan additional activities. When my boyfriend comes to town we already have activities in place. In this way I have made a commitment to myself and do these activities for that reason. Planning also gives me something to look forward to during those down times.

How would you describe your own self worth and do you think this might affect your ability to get out?

[-jimi-]

My home is an extension of me. It reminds me of the clutter that is my life and its mess reminds me of my unfinished projects in all areas. Yes, it gets me down. Also my home is full of distractions and takes energy away from what I need to do.

I think for me the solution is to create a space in my home that is only allowed for things like reading, active music listening and creating. Where easy entertainment is not allowed, where the rest of my life is not allowed in.

I actually have a whole room for this project... shame on me for not being longer along in my plans. But I think the same could be done in a corner of a room with a chair or a desk or whatever is needed. A space that is only designed for the good activities.

When I was at school I was the type of student that needed to take my books to a park or to the library to be able to focus.