Well, I just had the best weekend of my life. I spent it with people I love so much and that I was missing terribly, and for those of you who really know me you probably figured out it was sara and mandy. I got to go back to crossroads (my summer camp that I am in love with) but my point is that i had the most fantastic weeked. On the way there though my mom had called me and yelled at me about having a messy room so I was fully expecting to come home to my mom yelling at me. She didnt though.. I went upstairs and she cleaned my room for me and hung up all my clena clothes. She did a bit too much and i kind of dont like some of what she did but it is way better then being yelled at. So I got to talk to my mom about my weekend and showed her pictures and she really seemed intrested in my whole spiritual side of the weekend etc. Then she told me some sad news... my cousing Jaccob died. My Uncle, his dad had died back in september only. Jaccob was only 24. I feel so guily that i was having such a great time while he died...
I also feel sort of scared because i have some heart problems and he died of a heart attack they think. I was freaking out but my mom told me not to worry because i am at the hospital all the time for check ups but i cant help but worry now and feel sad for a lost life. I know everything EVERYTHING happend for a reason that only God can understand sometimes but i am still sad.
pray for my family if you want to..

[mrsmoggles]

court_knee...You and your family are in my prayers...I am sorry you had such a good weekend just to have it zapped away from a sad deal at the hands of fate. and take care...melanie

[curley]

Court, I am so glad you had a good weekend. Sometimes our parents surprise us and isnt that wonderful. I am sorry for your loss. 24 is very young. But I also feel you are right that God takes us when he needs us. Take care and hope your days are as good as this past weekend.

[DePressMe]

Court_Knee, I am so sorry for your loss. I will send positive thoughts your way...hang in there.

[(JD)]

CK, don't allow the great time you had during the weekend be taken away by the sad news, and the ongoing fear. Continue to draw on your weekend for strength. You couldn't have done anything about your cousin no matter where you were. Continue your healing.

[I_WMD]

Court ,,,,,, I have been places doing things when the most important peep in my life passed .

My Dad. in 1986.

But I was starting a new business at the time and I was mad I wasn't in closer touch that day.>>>>> Court I thought it through and in time came to the conclusion I was doing something that Made me happy at the time ,,, and ,,, For that I knew ,, I was Doing what another would have wanted for me at that moment ,,,,

A Smile on my face and another challenge that I was able to get through .

You Take Good and Gentle Care My Young Friend ,,((((( Hugs ))))).

court so sorry for your loss

[AlteredState01]

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[_Hope_]

(((Court_Knee)))

[BlueFaith]

((( Court_Knee ))) I'm so sorry for your loss.

[sabby]

((((((( Court_Knee & Family ))))))))

I'm sorry for your loss dear one. It's hard to have those mixed emotions of having fun while a loved one passed. Maybe a way you can look at it is like this --

God needed your cousin, but he also needed you to have some positive and good times to remember too. So when you are feeling sad about loosing your cousin, you can also draw from the positive time you had with your friends and that can help you get through your sadness.

I'm also sorry you are feeling scared about your physical wellbeing. Your mom is right...you are being watched and taken care of so that you can be more healthy and live a long and good life.

I'll bet that mom cleaned your room because she needed to let off some steam after the news of your cousins passing....and to help you to feel better too. I'm glad she didn't yell at you when you came home. She loves you and is doing her best....thats a good thing

You and your family are in my prayers Court

sabby

[Labyssum]

*HUGS*.

Thanks guys =]