I know I have spoke of this before. For those who first met me in chat when I first came to pc. After I trusted , I told some of the story.
Even now writting this little bit, it does not show how fearful i can be.......
It explains why sometimes I can not express my feelings. I have a very hard time with that sometimes. Besides with what I had dealt with growing up, and issues here at home "which I am not going into right now"
Sorry this is coming out jumbled. Maybe cause I get nervous thinking about it.

Back 3 years ago now. After my aunt passed on."she passed from cancer as alot of our family had ,also friends" My cousin and I joined a radio forum and newspaper one. It all had to do with the environment back home.
Back then I use to just say it the way it was. If I did research and came up with info I shared.... Always as imho......sadly some ppl really do not like my thoughts.
It had to due with pollution back home. and big company's.......
Before that I had never been on a forum." After that pc is the only other one I have been on."
Any ways to make a long story short,"as thinking about it makes me uneasy"
I became the target for a persons bullying "a man" Two other woman on the sites faced the same thing. So i was not alone at least. Also my cousin who is a guy.
At the worst of it. Maps to my house were put up. Pictures altered of my son. "As he had been in the paper" So this person could get at that info that way.
My name put all over the sites and my address and my biz was linked to it. My daughters name was smeared at every chance, this person had. My parents were, my cousin was, even my uncle. It was endless.
I had the police involved, lawyers. No one could stop it........
One funeral we had I had to have a body guard there, As I had to go back home. The persons picture had to be shown to the funeral home ppl, They stayed at the door so this person was not allowed in.
Before all this I had never heard the words flamming . After that I knew what it meant.
This man came into the site under different names, So i never knew untill something bad happend. It scared me very badly....and my children.
Imho he came to my home, my biz, In vaded my computer and my cousins. he also was at my cousins home.
I was theatened at one point, if i did not leave the paper and be silent that my name would be all over google and my biz would be harmed. Thinking ppl were not that mean or able to do that..... I did not give up for awhile and it happened. Also I was turned into the sales tax ppl. Who went threw our whole town and checked ppls tax ids.
I had a email sent to me that said that would be done. Once again I really thought , someone could not be that mean. I was fine thou had all my tax papers out.
All as I can say is it was endless. I finally gave up."it scared me to no end" As i was scared to go back home. My kids had to be careful, And the things printed about my daughter were just heart breaking.
Even last summer. I found a blog where my biz name was used in not a nice way. So if ppl put my biz into google that came up.
A few friends from here I trusted, they saw it. Luckly there was a number to call and it was removed in 2 days. Sadly it had been on the net for months.....
Its amazing how words can hurt so badly and make you so afraid.......

If ever here I have hurt anyone cause I could not talk or explain I am sorry.
I wrote this again, to let you all know how grateful for all of you I am. Also to let you know if I seem like I can not talk or explain things, Its not you. Its me pulling back and being afraid.....With everything that has happened in my life....its hard for me to trust.
If I do trust you "I really do"
Hope this was ok to print....just the sheeps thoughts

[pachyderm]

Thanks, sheep, for that history.

[bebop]

(((((muffy)))) sounds like a horrible time for sure hon. mean people stink!

[BlueFaith]

((( muffy ))) I'm so sorry this happened to you. Sometimes it's shocking at how people can be so mean.

[sabby]

(((((((((((( muffy ))))))))))))))))))

You have nothing to apologize about my friend. You were the victim.....not the perpetrator. How much you divulge is strictly your business and no one HAS to know anything you don't want them to know.

Trust is a difficult thing when it's been trampled on. Please do what you feel comfy doing and take care of you and your family. That is the most important thing here!

We love the sheep and will always support her.

*Gentle Hugs*
sabby

[nowheretorun]

(((((muffy)))))) cruelty is a damaging thing in all its forms imo... "MEAN PEOPLE SUCK" is a bumper sticker... have you seen it?

that and Free Tibet are a few choice faves of mine...

but not to derail the thread... kindness heals imo... a listening ear.... connectedness...

course ya know i caution you all the time to be careful, so im gonna try and be careful about what others might think

... words can be interpreted so many ways.. i think gentleness is the best way to avoid flames and triggers...

its a challenge tho when a person feels they do have to stick up for themselves and do something they dont enjoy or feel comfortable with...

history is something to learn from tho for me... i think thats where the growth can happen, from the lessons... now you are wiser (was it possible : ) and learned...

praying for growth.. we are still alive : )

[chalmette70043]

Hey ((((((muffy)))))))). You need to do what you have to do. Protecting yourself and your family are priority one.

I myself think its not a good thing to trust people until you know them quite well, and even then. Sometimes things happen and you never would have thought.

Thanks for sharing that with us. I appreciate it. And it gives me a stronger feeling of affinity towards you.

Your a good person and only deserve good.

your friend
chalmette

[CedarS]

(((((((((((muffy)))))))))

I've experienced cyberstalking also, it really really sucks.

I just read a good book that helped me make more sense of my experience: Cyberstalking: Harassment in the Internet Age and How to Protect Your Family. I got a copy through my public library.

[eskielover]

I can relate to your being attacked & afraid for what might happen to you. I had it happen in real life when my Mother was dying of cancer....with the home care person who fraudulently portrayed herself as an RN & was associated with my Mothers boyfriend & his daughter.

She manipulated her way into caring for my Mother & then stole all the valuable jewelry, started writing checks signed by my Mother. I physically caught her on the phone applying for a credit card using all of my Mothers ID information....called the police & had them come to the house to accuse me of abusing my Mother & then when that didn't work, she got my mother to stuff a handfull of pills down her throat...turned out it was an OD of morphine when I found one of the pills that had dropped later that night after I safely got my MOther out of the house & into the hospital. From the hospital, I contacted Adult Protective services & let the boyfriend & daughter know what was going on.....they denied it completely....I know the daughter was in on it....trying to get my Mothers house for her father because he was helping out my mother during her cancer treatment. After that confrontation, I stupidly stayed alone overnight in my Mothers house. I had decided that morning to go directly to the police & file a report with them......as I opened the door to walk out, I realized that the front door was surronded by bushes & who might be hiding behind them....let alone, what might she have done to the car...it was sitting all night on the street & her husbans was supposedly a mechanic......first thought was a bomb (how movie like?) or the breaklines cut? I had no idea what I danger I might encounter if she thought she was being attacked...I already had my mother with an alias in the hospital so she couldn't find her there....but how could I keep the boyfriend away from her & if he knew where my Mother was, so would the lady. The drive to the police station didn't show up any damage to the car, only thing was that she showed up following in the car behind me as I turned down the street for the police department. The police came to the hospital later that day to take a statement....sadly, my Mother didn't really know what was going on around her, so it was basically my work against hers & even though she actually stole a credit card & used it, they didn't have enough evidence to put her away. I feared for my MOther everyday she was in the hospital & wouldn't leave her side for those 3 weeks until I had her transferred to a nursing home in the city where I lived....over 1 hour away from her home & no one except for family & very close friends knew where she was

I understand fear so well after that experience. I have always been a fighter & not willing to let others win....sadly, I wasn't able to stop this lady...Adult protective services dropped the case....without looking into it (can of worms to get into & things had been dropped wrongly) & the DA said the detective didn't have enough evidence.....I know she's out there doing this to other cancer patients. It's sad when in your heart you so badly want to stop them from doing these horrible things to other families but feel trapped & helpless...knowing excactly what it's like to fear for your life (even if it wasn't an open threat, wondering what a criminal might do may be far worse than actually knowing by a threat)/

Sometimes we have to retreat for our own safety or wellness. I know that this situation was making me so ill, I couldn't eat & was getting sicker & sicker to the point I was in the hospital with IV nurtition when my Mother actually died. Going through traumas is very difficult thing & most of the time we come out of it so wounded that our only way to heal is to retreat.

I hope you are able to get through some of the trauma issues you are dealing with....sadly when another trauma hits right after that one, the healing time isn't enough & we end up adding new struggles to the ones we were just trying to heal from.....

It is good that you are able to recognize & act in a way that you are able to protect yourself & know yourself well enough to explain where you are coming from at this point in time.

Thank you for sharing.....you definitely understand where you are coming from & can definitely sympathize with you.
Debbie

(((((((((((((((muffy))))))))))))))))

we love u

[alyssa_angel]

((((muffy))))

what a horrid experience i hope your day goes well

It has been hard to come back and read this.....
Only cause it was a hard time for me.
But you all needed to know....I wanted you to know
(((((every one))))))) your kindness here is amazing
I am so sorry for the ones who know what it feels like...
Keep yourselfs safe

[SweetSunshine]

((((((((((((( WonderfulMuffySheepy)))))))))))))) Your courages is amazing. Dont ever doubt yourself. I am so glad you were able to tell us . I admire you for this . Luv you much my dear friend.

Hugz
Bethy

[CedarS]

((((((((((((muffy))))))))))))))))

[Juliaspavlov]

love and hugs Muffy our dear sheep!!!
We have total empathy...I still have a phone stalker
but I have received counsel which helped....
I pray for courage for you and us all....

aww(((julia))))
I am so sorry
No one should have to go threw this
know you are not alone
you can pm me anytime

the person use to call me too