So I think I might be going crazy or something. I have been out of school for 2.5 weeks and then came back just in time to take the HSPA's which is a 3 day test that I have to pass in order to graduate high school. I have a few tests in each class to make up and all my teachers are not being too nice about it and every time I sit there and do my make up work I feel like I have gotten no where. I am so stressed out and it doesn’t help that I am a perfectionist because now tomorrow after I take the 4 hour HSPA I have to go take a sociology test. I was studying with my step dad tonight and I had gone to bed at 4 am last night and woke up at 6am so I guess I was cranky and I was yelling at him for telling me the answer and my mom was like what’s wrong court and I just broke down crying because I'm exhausted and I am going to fail the HSPA and my sociology test tomorrow and I feel so stupid and I am so stressed out. My mom made me some tea and then told me to go to bed but I can’t stop worrying. I studied for another hour but what if I don’t get to graduate now. I am so stupid. And, my chest is killing me. My heart hurts so badly right now. It's not fair. Why can’t I sleep even though I am so exhausted. Every part of me is tired. I need sleep, but I can’t. Sorry for this lame post.

[Christina86]

((((((((((Court))))))))))))) I hear you. High school is stressful. Actually scratch that, school is stressful.

I hope your tests go well. Try to breathe, and get some sleep. Sleep does more for test-taking, then trying to cram in more info into your head.

[sabby]

**********Court***********

Sorry you were stressing out so much last night. I do hope you got some sleep hon.

Christina is right....you don't want to over study hon...it can make your brain go a bit numb when you need it the most...

I've got my fingers, toes and eyes crossed for you! Well, gotta watch the eyes...I have to drive later I have no doubt you will do just fine Court....you are a very bright young lady and I have faith in you and your abilities. Take it easy on yourself hon....and it will all flow nicely. You will be and do just fine!


sabby

[nowheretorun]

hang in there Court_Knee....

well i think i failed my stupid sociology test.
suck to be me.
I didnt even have enough time to write my 10 point essay
and so now the highest i can get is a 90 which is a B and thats if i get everything else right which i didnt. Some of the multipe choice answers were not what i studied i was like wtf. I couldnt foccus either because he was teaching the class still and they were all laughing and also i was so tired because he made me take it literally 5 minutes after i finished my HSPA. I cried after. this sucks. i am so stupid.

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i got a 72. A freaken 72. How stupid can i get. I mean seriously i should have done so much better. geez i am so dumb =[ feujsfhehnfjuehfuedjhsf

[BalishBun]

school can make you 10 times more stressed than you were before.

[BalishBun]

(((((((((COURT))))))))) "i love hugging people!"

[tulips30]

HEY!!!! 72...........YOU PASSED!! That is generally considered a good thing, You are NOT dumb. You were tired and stressed. These do NOT equal dumb. Go a little easier on yourself. If you can say that you honestly did the best you could on that partciular test on that particular day....that's all there is.

tulips

[kimmydawn]

I know this probably won't help alot now, but let me share...

My oldest cared VERY much about her grades, and is *highly* self-critical. She felt about her grades as you do. She would sit up late, going on and on and on till I'd start getting on her.

Once she had to be out an extended period and, yes, when she came back she had tests, etc., to take. She didn't do well (and for a straight A student, that was hard for her to take). Her teacher pulled her aside and told her not to sweat it.

It wasn't because of her, but it was because make-up work is just that. It cannot and does not cover what's been gone over in class, the things teachers point out that's needed to know for tests, the explanations given, etc.

It helped her to know, coming from a teacher, that it wasn't her...just the way it happens when missing extended periods from school. Nobody's fault, and certainly not hers for being sick.

Can you think of it the same way? It has nothing to do with your intelligence...you can only test on that you've learned and being absent for so long, you missed alot...despite the makeup work because it just doesn't cover it all.

KD

PS-She went on to graduate fifth in her class (a large class), and she actually got her first and only "F" during this time (shh, don't tell anyone because it's still an ouch for her).

I know if i had been in school i would have gotten an A so in the end it is still my fault. I feel like i shouldhave just studied more. I hate doing bad on tests. A 72 is a D not much better then an F. When i told my mom she actually wasnt even mad she told me not to worry about it. Thats weird for her tosay that. Nornally shes all in my face about my grades. Bs are unacceptable. When i told her i got a 99 on a test she said "oh why didnt you get a 100?" i was lke uhh thanks mom. I just want to get into a good college and i cant if i get bad grades. suck to be me

[mandazzle]

Buck up brother bill because a bunch of bitter boys because a bunch of better boys behind a big big smile.
And we're going to MSMC. I got a letter from them this weekend.

smile sweetly susan so you send satin sadly awayy hey hey.

what is MSMC?

[mandazzle]

Mount Saint Mary College. The school we're going to.

oh duh.

what did the letter say!?

[mandazzle]

Oh it was just like we were glad you came to visit us and blah blah, but it gave me instructions on how to apply.

oh sweet.

college here we come <3

hope they are ready for some mayhem!

[mandazzle]

Lol that's the same thing we said when we went to camp...and we almost got kicked out. Foreshadowing, what?!

yeah, but that wasnt our fault ... totally.

Gary was a creepy dude haha

plus... college is different from camp.. there is no one to like "baby sit" you

[mandazzle]

Lol Gary was a creeper.
True story. Their curfew is 1 am though. 3 am on weekends. Lol we will be the ones sitting in the cafe at 1 in the morning talking about life.

hahaha
true story.