[youOme]

I know my sadness is becoming old news, but it stays the same with me. My landlord has forgotten (oopsy) about the eviction, I knew she'd find away to give us more time. She knows how hard we work. I'll be caught up by next month, but...all other bills are suffering majorly. I ain't worried about that right now though, just one thing at a time.

I've gotten so down on myself and stressed to the max. It's effecting all of us. My little boy is having a hard time at preschool, his teacher told me he's been very emotional and cries alot. My little girl has been peeing on herself alot lately. I'm not sure if that's due to emotion or because toddlers occasionally back track on potty training.

My job is sucky. I work with much older women then myself and they give me hard time constantly. I think they are jealous or something...a young buck has walked on their territory. Yesterday I asked if they had ever worked with scheduling, maybe setting a schedule because they are so varied. One of the old ladies got really %#@&#! and said "Desirae, you're lucky you even got hired, the old manager wouldn't have hired you". When I asked her why she said it was because of my college and I have kids. Can they discriminate against students and parents like that??? %#@&#!, they're lucky I work for them...I'm a hard worker, I bust my *** for them.

I plan on applying at my sons preschool as a teachers assistant. It's a major pay cut...but I'll be with my kids, no daycare issues, and it's literally with in walking distance..no gas issues.

I applied for food assistance but still have not heard anything about my case. I call everyday, asking to speak to my case worker and I get nothing but a machine and no returned call. If we got our food assistance then we'd get through this, we really would. I know damn well we qualify, or did during the work less gap.....shouldn't we e reimbursed?

This stress has taken it's toll on me. I'm losing weight and never sleeping, never eating. I haven't talked to my friends in along time. I feel lonely.

[jbug]

(((((((((((((u))))))))))))))))))))))))) I don't know what to say except I'm sorry you are in the situation you are in. I hope things start to look up for you soon.

Jbug

[Donald61]

I too am in a very depressed state. I know it is hard, but hang in there
and ask God for help. It is easy to want to give up, but just keep trying, some days I have are better than others I keep you in my prayers. I'm new to this site, so I hope others will reply with better answers that I have for anyone right now.

Good luck!

Don

[Junerain]

you have a plan, right? You're coping the best you can......and give yourself a pat on the back for it....you could use a pat on the back about now...........

[wisewoman]

In my state you can ask for a same day decision in an emergency such as I have 0 money and 0 food and 2 kids to feed. Does your state allow Wick through age 4-5? Check the food stamp rules in your state or just call your local office and ask for a supervisor. You can explain that you know they legally have 30 days to make a decision but you are literally without food and need an emergency answer. Exaggerate a bit but DO tell them of all of the bills and being behind on rent. I hope that you have taken charge of the money so your husband can't use it on beer.

As for the ladies you work with, you are right it is not legal to discriminate like that but anyone can use any reason for not hiring. Tell the ladies too bad, you are there and their behavior is harassment and you will report if they continue. Just don't allow them to put you down and show that you know your stuff. What is that job? I think you are wise to get the assistant job at the day care. It probably would balance out with gas and all. Try going fore it! Why work at a job you hate if you have a choice?

You are one brave, determined, tough as nails, loving, mama and please let the guilt go. It hurts only you and your loved ones.

[splitimage]

Sorry things are so hard for you right now - don't know anything about social security in the states so no advice there. Sorry the older ladies are giving you a hard time - they probably just don't like any kind of change, but if changing jobs will make your life better go for it and i hope you get it.

You're a strong person, you can pull through this.

--splitimage