[SweetCrusader]

Ok sorry but I'm going whine and whine for a minute, ok? I have had the hardest two weeks. I ended therapy with my T and moved to a new city. The guy I was in love with for over 10 years married someone else, AND called me the day before to remind me I was invited to the family luncheon. I was hospitalized with kidney stones and got behind in my homework, but I can't catch a break from my professors. I was triggered severely by my abuse and neglect class. And now I just found out that one of my best friends in the world just died.

I am SOOO sad. And SOOO tired of everything. I wish I could have a chance to just come up for air before getting hit with crisis after crisis. I'm so sad.

Thanks for listening

Angela

[(JD)]

gee ((((((sweet))))) that is soooo much to contend with... soooo much stress.... you really do need a break! I hope you can come up for air soon, if it doesn't happen on it's own, you might have to schedule time to do it. Feel better.

((((((((((((((((((((Sweet)))))))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are feeling like life's punching bag right now. It seems like we can never have a single crisis, they always insist on coming with siblings.

I know you are a fellow Alanis fan, so I've been trying to think of a song that might help give us some perspective - but I've had some trouble with it. However, I DID come up with parts of 2 different songs (sorry they aren't from SFIJ):

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

AND

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

Ok, so maybe they are trite at the moment. But you can at least know that there is something to be learned here - even if you can't see it right now. AND you are definitely due some of "life helping you out." I hope it comes soon!

[SeptemberMorn]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Crusader}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I'm so sorry you're having a hard time right now. Sometimes the ship just hits the sand, ya know? I, too, lost a very good friend not too long ago and my ex mil in one week's time. Somehow I made it through. I know you will, too. Make sure you get what you need during this time. Pretend it's a race you are running and remember to breath deep to keep up your oxygen supply. That may mean making time for yourself to refill your "gas tank."

[SweetCrusader]

Thanks so much you guys!! This is such a hard, hard time for me. It's hard to even keep my head on straight.

Oh, and especially thanks for the Alanis stuff!

((((((sky, girl, & sept)))))))

Angela

oh, Angela, i'm so sorry for all that's come your way. you're in my prayers and thoughts.....it's very hard to go through something like this without a little down time. can you get a massage. i find they are very good for grief. i do cry a lot during the massage, but feel so much better later......xoxoxoxoxoxopat

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))))))))))))

Love,
Fuzzy

[SweetCrusader]

thanks, everyone! i don't have anyone here to get a massage from and i don't have a job yet, so i can't afford to pay for one. i just have to work this out for myself.

i am so sad. i'm really, really, going to miss my friend. i loved him so much

[Rapunzel]

((((((((((((Angela))))))))))))))))

You've just got to get some kind of break soon. Maybe one thing you can learn from this is to reach out and ask for help from all the resources that are available to you. I think you are doing a pretty good job at that.
Sending You More Love and Support,
Wendy