[katebabe622]

my mom is great .. unless something is wrong. i told her I was depressed, and she completely dismissed it as "normal teenage feelings", but I think I know better. Then, I asked her if maybe I could be bipolar, and she once again dismissed it in the same way. I know something is wrong with me, but she ignores it. My brother went through this exact same thing at an even younger age than I am, and she sent him to a psychiatrist right away. She says that because I saw what John (my brother) went through, I'm probably just faking it. What do I do? I don't know how I can show her. At the beginning of all this, I would cry uncontrollably right in front of her, and she would just dismiss me.

[Rhapsody]

Maybe you can talk to your doctor on the phone (or) go see the school nurse before school is out for the summer.... then one of them can talk to your mother.

[katebabe622]

my school is a joke, and my doctor works with my dad. i don't trust my school with my grades, much less my health, but thanks for the reply.

[Junerain]

How about show your Mom this post print it out and show it to her?

[MyBestKids2]

I agree with Junerain, print out this post and give it to non-chalantly..with her morning coffee, on the refrigerator.

Good luck to you!

[Peanuts]

Perhaps you could contact the Dr who worked with your brother ?? Is your brother still being treated ?? Perhaps he can help speak with your mom concerning this issue.

[(JD)]

Kate, it's a tough place to be isn't it, where the people you rely upon to help you turn a deaf ear.

Why not begin a journal just for this? Write down your dark thoughts, (date and time too maybe?) and your times of silliness or hyper moods. If you're able, make short notes of what may have added to your mood at the time. After a few weeks of this, you at least will have a good documentation of how you are feeling, and may be able to speak more specifically about it, rather than in general.

Good wishes.

[thelostone]

try talking to your brother. he has been there, so should understand, and then maybe he could go with you to talk to your motherm

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[katebabe622]

i always feel like it will hurt my family if i kind of push it. i saw what it did tomy parents the first time around with john and he pushed the cause. they were hurt, and i would always hear them talking about how they may have failed as parents. the problem with speaking to my brother is that he doesn't really care, and i never see him anyway. he's one of those self-absorbed, always busy, never cares about others, kind of person. and then, there's the doctor that treated my brother ... he died. the first time i ever felt just overwhelmed and completely worthless, the very first thing i did was start a journal. on my bad days i write up to 8 entries. recently i've been writing less though, down to about a page and half. it really helps a lot.

[TaintedGoth1]

Journaling is a good start.

You know my mom always said everything I went through was "all in my head" and she basically ignored it. But I think somewhere inside her she knew I needed help...even if she didn't want to admit it to herself.