make it go away

depression.... once the panic settles my mind has to pay attentin to the pain I have been ignoring, so to speak, and once I can get that back managed... the depression, ever present, takes over my mind... while on my trip I lost a gold earring. I knew I was leaving something in the one room... but search ed and serached and couldnt notice it wasnt till that night that i realized I'd been weraring only one earring ... so my solid gold heart stud earring is gone. add that to the other stuff:
my yard hasnt been done in exactly one month and they are supposed to come at 10 day intervals... and Icant find hisnumber to call and cmplain others in the neighborhood are gonna complain... I had to return items due to poor product and they haven't reimbursed my shipping costs... and the co that has my wireless phone account didn't get the new upgrade program so now I hve to call them and straighten that out... if they ever answer the damn phone!

I am still tired from the trip. the anxiety. the triggers, the time with family...and their misunderstandings and stress (they are babysitting a parent with alzheimers who now won't eat much.) I am supposed to try another new med and I haven't lost the weight I gained and haven't gained the hair I lost... and the insurance co went and ordered a spcae for me at a pain clinic... where my pt says he disagrees with some of their methods (this would make me worse for a whiel, not help)

My dog needs grooming. I tried (should not have) to clip his nails and cut quick on one... end of trying to do that

once again i added one check in twice into the checkbook... why do I do that? I still haven't had nail care for myself in over a month... ugh and oh, that broken tooth? afer a mnth I got it fixed but he didn't readjust my jaw splint and Ihave been without one... increased pain

oh well.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Sky}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry!

One thing at a time, one baby step at a time. Prioritize.

I agree with Tomi ... big hugs for you (((((((((((((((((((((((((Sky)))))))))))))))))))))))))

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Did you have a decent night last night? I sure hope so!

I saw that you were supposed to get thunderstorms again today. Courage, Lady. Nothing will happen to you. He's got you hidden under His wings.

(((((((((((((((((((((((sky)))))))))))))))))))))) sorry you're feeling bad.

thanks ss for your support...

ah ha! I rewatched that movie What about Bob on my evacuation... baby steps... thanks for the memory.

regular hugs and BEAR HUGS TOO! ahhh I have to feel better. Thanks fuzzy....

garbage! Now that I've said all that, here is what happened today ... just can't let things go...

The antenna on my wireless phone broke off and I almost lost it and I can't use the phone till I get it fixed... my lifeline to my T!

The lawn guy said his crew won't come to my place because I had an argument with them (NOT so... and I spoke to him about them not doing my hedges... and that was a month ago anyway so they quit I said ok thank you and hung up on him)

I'm trying this new drug Gabitril for seizures and migraines and pain... now I also have heartburn eyes hurt and I ran 3 red lights because I couldn't react to the yellow in time, and in another intersection I became totally confused and ended up in the wrong lane trying to make a left hand turn.. . at the meeting I went to, they said I was quite energetic (polite for too much))

I got the car washed when I fueled the car to try and make myself feel better, but forgot about it and when I came out from the meeting it looked like I had left the window down or that someone had broken in!

My notebook won't hold the settings for showing pages (browser) and I have to reset all of them before coming on line.

The wireless phone company still has me as the old agreement, not the new one which gives me 400 more minutes (of which I used most of from the evacuation excursion)...

The service agreements on my washer/dryer, garage door opener and lawn tractor expired. The tractor already expired and I didn't know it was still under service! and me with foot high grass in an HOA!

let's see what else? I don't want to think about it!