Im Jealous

Ive just been talking to an old past love of mine, who is on holiday at the moment somewhere hot (lol). I've also just recieved the news that all my girlies n some of my lad mates are going away for a mates holiday in 5 weeks (which was a shock to me, as I've only just found out and now Im finding out more and more of my mates are going...)

They said to me "Oh yeah, you know, we were gunna invite you but seeing as you have no money and what not..."

My boyfriend is raving about his lads holiday this year.

I feel left out. I feel really jealous and its really triggering me off. Ive never had a proper holiday before (I went to Cyprus last year abroad for the first time, but it doesnt count as I was on my own and I was working).

I feel like everyone is allowed to have fun and not me and are rubbing it in to top it all off. It sucks. I hate that I have no money, and that I live in a box of a house and have to share a room with my brother because my dad spent the loan which was supposed to be saved for re-doing the attic. He doesnt 'believe' in holidays or anything like that and that he'd rather spend his money on alcohol. And I know I should be starting to earn my own money but I'd rather go back to college and only have a part time job. I hate this.

babyg

BabyG -

I'm sorry all your friends are going off on holiday and you're not, that would upset me too. And I'm sorry about your less than great living situation. But I totally support you in wanting to go to college and only work part time. Even though it sucks that you don't have much money now, getting an education is so worthwhile because it really does pay off in better jobs in the long run. Hang in there and remember that the short term sacrifice is worth it.

--splitimage