I suck

Hey everyone,
I just wanted to say I am sorry. I have been a bad board member lately. I have not been on since last week. Just due to too many work hours and not having time for anything else. I just come home and then have to run out again to make it to my other job. I swear I feel as though I am losing my mind. I do not have time for anything. I have been up since 5:30 this morning and I have to run to my other job for 5:00 and work until 10:00.
I know that I am whining, but I feel like whining. I am crabby. I feel like hell for not coming around here more.

Jessica

Aahhh! How can you say that? You're gainfully employed and productive! You have good reasons for not being around. So many of us would love to have those reasons!

You take that back, Young Lady! It's not allowed to talk about yourself that way!

No, really it's not but you know I care very much about you, ok?

Hey Jessica, you're always very helpful and caring when you're here, and we all appreciate that, but be sure to find time to REST, girl! Don't worry about getting here.

Candy

You are doing something a lot of us here aren't doing, and might even be a little jealous of; you're working! Kudos! You are allowed to whine whenever you want, and if you are too tired to come here, get some sleep instead! I'm sure that the people here want to have you healthy! Not posting does not make you a "bad member" (if it does, I know I'm a bad one) not posting makes you a BUSY member! keep coming back whenever you have the time

There's nothing wrong with being crabby. I've been crabby myself for days now. What isn't necessary is saying bad things about yourself, especially when they aren't true. You don't suck, Hun. You're wonderful, believe it or not! LOL At least, I think you are.

Hello Jessica --

You DO NOT SUCK!!!

You are working. You are productive. You are wonderful, caring member of the board when you are here.

If I had less free time -- that is, if I had employment -- I wouldn't be able to hang out here as much either. So not being around is a sign of success!

Of course, you can be crabby and vent here.

<font color="blue">(((((((((((((</font><font color="green">Jessica</font><font color="blue">))))))))))))</font>

Awwww thank you everyone.
You guys are too great. I guess I just miss the days when I was able to come here more and chat. Being productive is good I guess...but I miss my free time too. I need to find some kind of mid way where I have both. Hopefully I can quit one of these jobs soon.
Thank you for your kind words that I am kind.... I like to think that I am but I guess after my day yesterday I just don't feel like it.
The winter blues are setting in for me. I have been very moody lately and depression has been coming back to bite me in the butt. I am trying to sleep as much as possible and take care of myself. It seems to help a bit. *sigh*

Jessica

((((((((((((((((((((Shakes))))))))))))))))))))

Thanks Fuzzy

Jessica

HI Shakes, i just wanted to tell you that you definetly DO NOT suck. Youre busy with work and theres no reason to feel bad about not posting as often as you'd like to. If that were true, id be in a real big mess cause i havent been here in ages. Have a wonderful day.Jagster

Thanks Jag. Just me being an overly sensitive freak.

Jessica

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Jess}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} You're lovable, sweet, caring and PRODUCTIVE!

AND I love you!

At least you're working and have a job. Be thankful for that, at the very least. Believe me, it's a valid reason for not being around. I'd kill to have that reason at this piont.

(((((((((((shakes)))))))))))))

Sis Tomi,
Awww *blushing from head to toe*

Jessica

Lost Lonely,
I am grateful for having work. It is just hard sometimes. Thanks for your kind words.

Jessica

I have been trying to be optimistic this past week. My mood swings are driving me nuts. I am always vary between wanting to hide and being exhausted to feeling so anxious to get out and doing something besides sitting around. It is an interesting mix of conflicting feelings to have.
All and all I am just trying to not be so hard on myself and what I am going through. I am doing the best that I can do right now between not being on meds and living a crazy hectic life.

Jessica