[SweetSunshine]

<font color="blue"> Sorry Everyone </font>

[SweetCrusader]

For what??

[SpazKatt]

what ever happened I forgive you

[Mahali]

I don't know what you are sorry for but I hope you are OK.

Please be safe and take care of you.

[silver_queen]

Tryin, are you ok? You know you are free to pm me/ im me at any time, right?

Please take care.

Silver.

[bptoo]

For what? Being a loving, caring, sweetheart of a person? I'm glad you're here tryin, you make me smile.

Love ya,
Greg

[nightdream]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Tryin}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

nightdream

[Fuzzybear]

I have no clue what you are apologizing for..... but hang in there hon!

Bearhugs
Fuzzy

[SeptemberMorn]

Why? For being precious you? No appology needed for that!

AWWWW Your puppy and kitty are so cute!! AWWWW Just like you!

Love you, Hun!

[h0kie]

(((((Tryin)))))

You don't need to apologize...everyone has a bad day. It's ok for you to have one too! Things will get better...you just have to be patient. Easier said than done, I know.

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( tryin ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

why on earth would YOU be sorry? you've been so kind to me and mine...one of the first to help me to feel safe and at home here. what's going on? pm if you need or want.

kd

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks guys. I just havent been able at times to say much at all here or in chat.I feel there is a huge cloud over my head and I am just so overwhelmed with what I need to do and what is going on in my life. I dont know how to handle it anymore. My cutting is worse, my depression is bad, I am supposed to quit trying to find happiness thru others and find it within myself and I dont even know myself well enough to know how to go about that. I need help from my family with my dad, and no one will help. I need some time away, as a dear friend told me to rediscover myself. Which is kinda weird because I dont know what is real about me and what is a part of my mask. I have lived my life to do for others, please others and protect myself from any conflict and harm and in that I have lost myself. How does one know what to do here? How do I find out who I am? I am totally lost here.

tryin

hey tryin....
i dont know what you did to feel sorry, but stop beating yourself up over it.....
i dont know what you are going through, but i know what its like to feel sorry.....
you can always press pause on your attempt to find happiness in yourself... and continue finding happiness in other people....
finding happiness in yourself cant be forced.... you will just stumble upon it, and suddenly find it. Then you can continue to make that happiness in yourself grow... and grow... and grow.....

[SS8282]

((((((((((((((tryin))))))))))))))))))) hope you feel better soon. Hugs.

[wisewoman]

Hey Trying, I have some things i would like to share with you if you would like. P.m. me if you do because I don't want to jump into my social worker uniform uninvited. I am sorry you feel you need to apologize. Please come and talk often and the biggest question of course, ARE the dishes done? P.m. me if you's like my friend.

[Wants2Fly]

Dear Tryin --

I am so sorry that you are feeling bad and are hurting yourself. I am glad that you are working with your T and getting some support from a friend.

I think, as CottonCandyLocks, suggests, it may be helpful to think of "finding yourself" as a process. Sometimes you will focus on finding happiness within, sometimes you will focus on finding it through other people. Whatever your focus of the moment, it's all good.

I've never intentionally self-injured (though I've had periods where I seem to hurt myself in a lot of "accidents"), so I don't know if it's OK for me to comment here. I have had to find myself, and am still working on that. When the life I had in 2003 fell apart in every way -- I didn't know who I was anymore.

One of the places that I've had to start is to Be In My Body. To start to become aware of what makes me feel anxious, or angry, or like I want to run away. And what makes me feel happy or peaceful or good. It starts by noticing things about the way my body feels. Sometimes, when we start, we may say, "I don't know how I feel" because we are so unused to being in our body, with our self.

Then, I have worked with a T to develop strategies to manage situations that don't make me feel good. To notice when people are irritating me and to speak up authentically instead of "stuffing" how I feel.

It's no overnight transformation -- the morning where you wake up and say, "Oh, there you are, you old Self you. I've been looking for you for a long time. Glad I've found you."

Rather finding the self is a journey of discovery. I have a hunch that it continues until we don't exist anymore.

Be well, Tryin2BMe.

[NiemandTeAl]

Hey bethy &gt;&gt;&gt;&gt;&gt;&gt;&gt;hand thing&lt;&lt;&lt;&lt;&lt;&lt;&lt;
I can't imagin how difficult it is to deal with the situation you're in. You are very couragious and strong and wonderul, and I'm a better person just for knowing you. So hang in there darlin. remember what my old friend used to say...."this too shall pass, this too shall suck...but it'll pass" Be well.
your friend,
dusty

[MacD]

you know that you are loved...whatever is goin on...

[SweetSunshine]

Thanks again guys for all your advice and hugs and well wishes. I will definitly try to get some of these things into practice. But right now I dont feel like I got anything in me to go on now. LIke a car running on empty. Hopefully something will happen that I feel better soon. Thanks so much~

Tryin

[SpazKatt]

Hey trying thanks for all your support *hugs*