[wisewoman]

I am exploding and can't do this anymore. I want to protect my kids and make life good. I feel powerless and like a piece of dung. I can't do this!!!!!! I am supposed to be functioning on so many different levels. It stinks.

[silver_queen]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((wise))))))))))))))))))))))))))) I'm really so sorry you're going through this you're doing the best you can though, you're trying your best, and that's a good thing.

[wisewoman]

Just be, the feelings will change and I am engaged in healthy self care. Do good, not hurtful. Working on it.

[wisewoman]

You can't fir me I quit, seems I don't fit in. Love rudolph. feel like raindeer turd though.

[h0kie]

You can do it, ww. We'll help you if we can.

Is there someone closer to your son that might be able to help too? If not, it sounds like the dean is giving your son a hard time just because he can...what about contacting NAMI?

We'll help. Don't give up just yet. Thinking of you and yours.

[vacantangel]

I'm so sorry to hear that you've come to a point of what feels like desperation and little hope. You said that you're already doing all the right things and that's great. Is there a crisis line you can call. Where I live, you can call and they will come to your home to councel you if you want or they will do it on the phone. Reach out to whatever resources you have where you live, including your own T if you have one. If you don't, sorry I don't remember, I would suggest you find one. If you do have one, I would encourage you to call for an emergency session, as I did myself a few days ago. Go to your local ER if you need to, even if it is for support. What about family, do you get any support there? And of course, you have all of us here. Reach out and talk with us all that you need to. We will be here for you to help in any way we can. If you need anybody to talk with, you can PM me any time you want. In the meantime, know that I care very much for you and support you and hope that you can feel better soon. Is there anything in particular that is bothering you that maybe we could help talk with you about? (((((((((((wisewoman)))))))))))

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( ww ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

honey, you're doing the best you can right now and that HAS to be enough...it just has to. you have so many fires going around you that you may have to pick the biggest to attempt to dowse the flames, then go from there. i'm so sorry that everything is hitting you all at once. my prayer for you is some peace and relaxation...respite from chaos.

until then, pick that fire in which the flames are the highest and go for it...keep the others there (knowing that you'll get to them as soon as the biggest one's under control). maybe that will help you feel like you have some control in your life right now. at least having that one choice that you make?

i get so angry at life sometimes when too many things hit at once. it's soooo not fair sometimes, and yet we have to deal. in times like that, i TRY to remember that things have been this way for me before and somehow, someway we made it through. you're so caring and loving and have so many that depend on you. it can be so hard

we adore you and are here for you...

Excelent advise Kimmy. WW, I can say from my own experiences that it's a tough pill to swallow when you feel like your best isn't enough, but you know what... it is enough. We sometimes feel that that's not true and that's a very normal feeling. Seems to me that you are taking care of yourself in that you are engaged in positive self care and I'm so very proud of you for that. The only thing I feel I can offer you is a shoulder to lean on if you EVER need it. Please continue to take good care of yourself. Peace be with you friend.

Ryan

[gracetoo71]

((((( wise ))))) i am soo sorry you are going through a tough time right now, but rem and kimmy are right, things will get better. no matter how dark things look, light will come soon. you are doing all that you can, and that is the most anyone can do. you are a good person who is doing all she can, never forget that.

i hope things get better for you soon. you are stronger than you give yourself
credit for. you will get through.
take care, and remember you have so many here willing to be a shoulder, punching bag, sound board, whatever.
grace

[Mahali]

(((Wisewoman)))

Keep doing the healthy self care. The feelings will change. There is only so much we can do.

Please take care of you and stay safe.

[wisewoman]

Thanks kids, my problem is I think if I am good enough and do things right enough it will all be okay and that is bull****