[inkblot]

I haven't seen my kids since January. Their father won't allow me to see them because of this guy who was stalking/harassing me--who is now leaving me alone! Things have been especially great the past week. Their dad is being a butthead still. I am very, very, very, very upset by not seeing my kids. I can't go on like this. They are what kept me going before and now I have nothing. This is mostly what has been bothering me the past week. It's partly PTSD related from a couple years ago as well. My kids are clearly upset about not seeing me and won't even talk to me on the phone. Their dad may or may not even let me call at the scheduled times. I am emotionally F--ed up. I could post this in the PTSD forum or depression, or anywhere, possibly, because it involves a lot mentally. Their dad is who I had a severe PTSD reaction to a couple years ago, and it's still hanging around. So this situation doesn't help at all. :sobbing:

[cocoa]

Hi inkblot

You no my situation in some ways is not so differant from your own. I can say this. Your post is lacking key points of information. I wonder how he got the kidds to start with because in most civil desputs the children end up with the mom.

I hope you can just keep your cool and show them love. Its hard when you have an ex who is dificult but for the kidds you need to be strong.
If you consistantly show your kidds how much your there for them and how much you love them, you will know you've done your best.
I know how hard it is hon and I feel for you.
Stand tall and be strong!

Jacqui

[inkblot]

It's kind of hard to show my kids love when he won't let me see them and they won't talk to me on the phone because they are too upset about not seeing their mom or their dad is a B--ch and won't let me talk to them. Yes, their is some info missing because I didn't think I'd need to post the entire history, but I was homeless at the time of the divorce just as I am now which is WHY I don't have custody of my kids. For other information, I gained another PTSD problem relating to not having my kids due to the fact that I had a severe PTSD reaction because of things their father did to me and my kids went to live with their father--the person responsible for my orginal PTSD in the first place.

[cocoa]

(((((((((((((((((( inkblot )))))))))))))))))))

Now I understand. I'm so sorry for you hon and can only hope things will change and get better for you and your kidds. I can't even begin to imagion your hurt or how much you must miss them.

I'm here for you
Jacqui

((((((((((((((((((((inky)))))))))))))))))))) I'm sorry that you're going through this. Can't imagine what this must feel like for you. My heart goes out to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Take care.

Ryan

i'm thinking about you and praying for you and your children.....pat