[nothemama8]

so if a moderator would kindly move it to the right place I would be indebted for life.
I'm feeling like the proverbial fool right now, I'm hovering between anger and feeling lower than snail slime, but that's okay cuz I'm going to build a protective (boundries) wall so I won't feel this way for long, and only a select few will have the password to come and visit me, tired of walking on egg shells. Please I'm confused and need input as to why?
Angie

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((( angie ))))))))))))))))))))

i'm sorry you're feeling this way. has something happened? you can certainly pm if you want/need.

love,

[Nerak]

((((((((Angie)))))))))) what has happened - I am here if you need to talk

[nothemama8]

I'm tired of ppl taking advantage of those of us on this site and when we try to pick there spirits up, we get slamed when we need there support
Angie

hey.....i sent you a pm.....xoxoxpat

[kimmydawn]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( angie )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

pm me. we're here for you.

kd

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((((Angie))))))))))))))))))

[nightdream]

((((((((((((((Angie))))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry you are hurting. You are so very kind and you give so much support. I don't know how to help you with this. I can only say that I care and nobody has the right to hurt you.

You are very wonderful and you have a beautiful heart!
Love you
nightdream

[Isolated_Guy]

Angie, you're so special.

I just responded to you in the other section but I'll say it again.

You're no fool to me. You couldn't be if you wanted to.

[nothemama8]

Didn't mean to frighten anyone just needed to vent, thanks for the pm's,
Nightdream, Fuzzybear, Kimmydawn, Pat, 1day, you all have your own keys to the gate in my wall I'm feeling a bit better and will be my old sweet self again
Angie

angie, angie....(rollingstone's singing quietly)you're cool and supportive and beautiful and even though you haven't been substitute teacher of the year but once, i still dig you.......pat

[nothemama8]

Gary I didn't mean to leave ya out you also have the key, you have been there for me I thank you so much
Angie

[nothemama8]

Hey Pat , this is one of my favorite songs, cuz it really does tell what I'm like
Wish I had the lyrics to it
Angie

[Fuzzybear]

Hey that song makes me think of this bear too..... not quite sure why

Angie
(M. Jagger/K. Richards)

Angie, Angie, when will those clouds all disappear?
Angie, Angie, where will it lead us from here?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You can't say we're satisfied
But Angie, Angie, you can't say we never tried
Angie, you're beautiful, but ain't it time we said good-bye?
Angie, I still love you, remember all those nights we cried?
All the dreams we held so close seemed to all go up in smoke
Let me whisper in your ear:
Angie, Angie, where will it lead us from here?

Oh, Angie, don't you weep, all your kisses still taste sweet
I hate that sadness in your eyes
But Angie, Angie, ain't it time we said good-bye?
With no loving in our souls and no money in our coats
You can't say we're satisfied
But Angie, I still love you, baby
Ev'rywhere I look I see your eyes
There ain't a woman that comes close to you
Come on Baby, dry your eyes
But Angie, Angie, ain't it good to be alive?
Angie, Angie, they can't say we never tried

[nothemama8]

Sank you dalinkkkkk
Angie

[SweetCrusader]

What happened, sweetheart?

PM me or find me on MSN, k?? Let's talk!

Love ya,
Angela

[Wants2Fly]

Hi Angie -- So glad that you are feeling better. It is strange, isn't it, how these low moods can overtake us, sudden clouds that seem to come from nowhere. My Ts tell me that there are always triggers, altho they may be small things that we may not notice -- perhaps even a memory of the smell of coffee of a time -- below the surface of memory -- when there was a smell of coffee in the air when someone was emotionally or physically abusive or some trauma happened. And we have buried the memory so deep it is hard to access it -- and we may not have the association every time we smell coffee.

I'm glad your friendships here have helped you to come out of it a bit.

[silver_queen]

Angie, I'm sorry I haven't answered sooner, I'm visiting a friend...

(((((((((((((((Angie)))))))))))))))

Glad you're feeling a little better now .

[cocoa]

(((((((((((((((((( Angie ))))))))))))))))))

Your a good person
Thats all that really matters to me

Jacqui :-))

[wisewoman]

Hello again, I am sorry for whatever caused you to have the pain and I am glad it is feeling better inside. Hope it continues to brighten for you.

[nothemama8]

Silver queen, Jacqui, and ww you are my super friends and have the key to the gate of my boundrie wall
Angie

[sqrlb8]

I'm glad you're feeling better now, Angie. When bipolar is part of our "mix" we always have to remember that our feelings can get quite strange but that they come back too. I know for myself, it can be triggered or just well up from a calm pond too.

So you describe feeling as though hovering between two feelings, and feeling confused and wondering why. Feeling two different states is confusing, and for the states themselves, wy just isn't a useful question for myself. My feelings often don't have a reason. Looking for one only adds to my confusion most of the time.

But something else you said sounds to me like you hold a key for living better with this. You said, "...but that's okay, cuz..." What about changing that to be, " I'm feeling (fill in the blank) AND I'm ok." I'm feeling depressed, and I'm ok. I'm feeling confused, and I'm ok. I'm feeling whatever i'm feeling, for whatever reason or for no reason, and I am a being who is far more than any thing I am feeling at any moment.

If you can get past how sort of trite that sounds, you may find a real useful tool there. None of us struggling against such fluctuations of feeling can afford to identify ourselves by those feelings.

The first time I was able to say that I was depressed "and" ok, I literally laughed out loud.

[nothemama8]

Bushy tail, I was feeling used, and now I'm handing out keys to safe ppl so they can come into my boundry walls, now I control who how much of me I wish to share
Angie

[vacantangel]

I'm sorry I haven't replied your thread sooner. I rarely come to the General forum anymore. I did see you post in another forum and replied you there. I hope you're feeling better soon. Is there anything I can do? ((((((((((Angie)))))))))))