[hopelesslady]

Hi,
After several ECT I feel even worse with my depression.
I am a 62 year-old woman and have had mental health issues my whole adult life.
I do not want to go into detail about my past just yet as I am making the decision as to what hospital I will be going and whether as an in patient maybe ECT will be or feel more helpful.
I have NEVER felt so depressed. I am feeling so hopeless.
It is like I am covered in an emotional net that is keeping my mood very down and unable to move around.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE I need some help here. I am desperate for some help from others who have gone through similar situations I am going through.
I am crying all the time.
I am on Wellburtrin as well as Suboxone (28 mg) for my addiction and to help with my depression. I also take Valium, about 5-10mg. a day.

I beg of someone to see this and answer.
I am leaving in the next 10 minutes to see my doctor and decide where and what hospital I will be going, I guess on Monday.
So, I may not get around to read your reply IF you reply immediately.

Please, someone, answer. I feel so alone and feel like my emotions have tied me up in a tight bundle not allowing any happiness in. NONE!

[Bird Feeder]

I am so sorry that you feel the ECT is not working. To be quite honest it took at least 13 before I saw any improvement. I take it for depression with suicidal ideation and actions. It finally felt like it had worked when 6 months later the suicidal ideation came back full on. I went through another course of ECT and now get it every 2 weeks for the past 3 years. I can handle the suicidal thoughts without feeling like I have to act on them. A big improvement from years past. Bottom line ....give ECT a chance and keep on keeping on.....

[Skeezyks]

Hello hopelesslady: I did not see your post until the day after you posted it. So my reply is late. However, there's probably not much I could offer that would be of benefit anyway. I'm 68 & have struggled with depression & anxiety. (I've tried taking the do-it-yerself" approach a couple of times previously.) I've never had ECT. I'm also no longer on psych med's. Nor do I see a therapist. I ruminate a lot about wishing my life would draw to a conclusion. But I have no plans, any longer, to take an direct action to that end.

I hope your pending hospitalization will be helpful for you. Beyond that I will simply say... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[kecanoe]

I hope that your session with the doctor went well and you are receiving the help you need.