Hospitalized

I feel alone in this world, and not much better in the hospital. Just very sad right now.....SOOOOOO depressed!

Do you have a kindle or any good books you can read, to take your mind off things? Books have always been my escape from reality.

Unfortunately not. I am also unable to focus, due to my depression I suppose?

And I have to get off the computer now, because my time is over.

Are the docs considering changing your meds?

(((((shez)))))

Shez...I hope the docs are able to find you some relief. Hospitals aren't fun...I hope they are able to help you.

Hope you feel better soon

Hospital stays are no fun. Maybe do some art while you're there? I know they had an art workshop when I was there, it helped focus a little bit better than reading.

Feel better soon!

Yes, the doctors are increasing my anti-depressant dosages.

I did get moved to the Mood Disorders unit about an hour ago...that cheered me up a bit. Ugh ~ I don't know what that means. Back on my crazy roller coaster, perhaps?

(((shez))) I'm sure they're going to do the best they can to get you stable again. You WILL be okay.

(((((Shezbut)))))

I'm sorry that you're going through such a tough time now. I know being in the hospital isn't fun, but I hope that it, and the med changes help you to feel better.

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Hello!
I have been in the hospital.. A lot! So I know how you feel, and it was mainly when I was like 10-13 so I was feeling very active all the time! I also don't read much.. When I am alone and want to do something in hospitals I often imagine I am in a different world. I am easily distracted but eh its fun for a while. Just let your head run wild and don't worry about anything, it helps me waste time and loose a lot of stress.
Good luck!

Shez, I'm thinking of you.

Shez, i'm so sorry I didn't see this earlier! I also am thinking of you and hoping you will be out soon and be stabilized. Art was always the one thing that made me feel better too, if you get the chance. I'm hoping they have some answers for you! Take care!

Things are going alright for me. My day was a bit rough here & there, but I had some positives today as well. I got to go outside twice today, which is always positive!

My girls are coming to visit me tomorrow, so I am looking forward to that. Thankfully, this Mood unit is a lot less intense than the other unit I was on, when I saw them on Wed. Phew!

Thank you all for your kind wishes.

Oh that is good-less intensity. Thanks for checking in!! Hugs

Feeling for you and hoping that the visit with your girls went well. Are you sleeping well?

Thinking of you Shez!

Things are slowly improving for me. I talked with my ex-hisband on the phone last night and made plans for another visit this afternoon. He has been very supportive, so I am extremely thankful to him!

Generally, I've been sleeping well. But, last night was a very difficult night of sleep for me ~ I'm just exhausted today. It took forever for me to fall asleep and I had frequent waking when I finally did fall asleep. *sigh*

We are making plans for me to go home on Monday. I have mixed feelings about that prospect.

You sound better! That's good. What's bothering you about going home?

I have big triggers at home, and I don't think that I'm quite ready to face them.

Mainly: My ex-bf lives in the same apt building as I, and would still like to be a part of my life. It is hard to be "friends" with him. I need to let go of my current bf, as he & I just don't mix. He has done some things that I strongly disapprove of ~ it freaks me out. But, he doesn't want to let go of me or my daughters.

So, I need to feel stronger. I also need to get some kind of support and/or learning group set up, so I don't end up returning here in a few months.

{{{{ Shez~~! }}}} take the long view, it blurs the days just ahead ....

I see your dilemma and hesitation. Is it a matter of them not understanding or are they just ignoring your wishes? Either way, a support group sounds like a really good idea. Many hugs for you dear Shez, you are a good woman and an awesome mom!

Thank you notz, you are so sweet!

My current bf is emotionally abusive. I hadn't recognized it as such until now...but he's been holding a couple of issues over my head to keep me with him for a long time. He has called my girls, and talked with them, complaining about how I've broken up with him to be with a drug dealer - wrong. He went on to say that while he and I were no longer together, he still wanted to be able to talk with them. {I just found out about the conversation yesterday, and I'm trying to process that info now.} Uhhh, I think that is very weird. NOT good, nor is it acceptable. Then, when I called Bill to say goodbye, he insisted on calling my ex-hub (who has the girls). Kyra answered the phone and couldn't put my ex-hub on immediately, so asked why he was calling. He told her that I was suicidal and that's why he needed to talk with my ex-hub. WTH?? UGH!!!

IMHO, that is unacceptable. It is not Bill's place to tell my girls something so sensitive. And why would he feel that talking to my ex-hub is the appropriate move when I'm suicidal anyway? He knows that they live 30 miles away from me. It's just not right. I need to get away from Bill ~ plain and simple.

Goodness that's a lot to be dealing with!! Do speak up if you don't feel ready to go. I hope you can have a conversation with the staff about your emotionally abusive BF and get some services to help you with that!!
Hugs!

I agree with what kiya has said. Please get some feedback from the staff about what possible avenues there may be for you. Can you have a day out and if that goes well and you feel strong enough then going home? Support group and a good support person will be beneficial.

It is good that your ex hubby is looking after the girls. Hoping that he continues to be an encouragement.