[PennyRed]

For a long time I never considered the possibility of me having an eating disorder. Eating disorders were only reserved for anorexia and bulimia, whereas I just had a sweet tooth. However, tonight was the fourth time in two weeks that I ate too much, that I forced myself to get sick. It's a very sobering experience when you realize that you have a serious problem, and admittedly I feel really lonely and not sure who to talk too.

It's hard to explain because to be honest, I don't mind being heavy. I definitely need to lose weight to be at a healthy BMI, but I have never let being heavy stop me from doing fun stuff. But I am definitely an emotional and stress eating, and even getting sick is not about losing weight, but for the endorphin release. I do suffer from depression, and while I am taking medication, I feel like this binge eating is just a way for me to cope with stress. I want to eat healthier and learn how cope appropriately. If I lose weight in the process, that's excellent, but definitely not the primary goal.

I am a very emphatic person, and tend to put other people before myself, typically cause it distracts me from my issues, but I hope this forum allows me to kind of disassociate from that mentality and focus on me. The problem is, I have no idea where to start. I have never done anything like this before.

So forgive me rambling in this post, and at least thanks for reading.

[Crazy Hitch]

Hi PennyRed

Thank you for introducing yourself to us.

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I think you may have clarified your own answer here:

"Getting sick is not about losing weight, but for the endorphin release."

I'd suggest speaking to your family doctor as a starting point.

And take it from there.

Good luck with everything.

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May you find the comfort and support that you deserve.

Take care.

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[Jenilee]

Hi, I am brand-new to this site. Your story (Penny read )sounds exactly like me except I don't throw up. Everything else sounds exactly like me. I'm hoping to find motivation here. Like you my weight doesn't bother me. Actually wish I could get more motivated to change my eating habits and lose weight because I work in the health profession and I know that I need to mentally but I just don't care and I don't want to give up the comforts of these foods and one hand, on the other hand I do I'm looking for motivation by reading and post it here.

[sideblinded]

PennyRed, This isn't easy to talk about so kudos to you for reaching out. I just wanted to welcome you to PC. Many will want to chime in and offer support. Best wishes here at PC.

[CANDC]

Welcome to Psych Central. Sorry to hear you are having challenges with eating, but congratulations on your positive attitude to get things back in balance.

If I eat too many sweets I get sick to my stomach. I try to stick to protein, fruits and veggies. It is an effort to feel better. For me starting my day with exercise promotes energy and inner ease. I do yoga (go to youtube search yoga complete beginners Adrienne) and walking and other exercises.

If I start getting obsessed with an idea of food or something I start being aware of my breath and counting the inhales and exhales while breathing naturally.

The more time I spend on Psych Central the less I obsess about other things. Your empathy for others can help you to. Reading others' posts and replying can help both people.

Please feel free to private message any of the Community Liaisons by left clicking on the name in blue to the left of their post) for questions or just to share.

[missbelle]

I myself have always been an emotional eater. I have tried overeaters anonymous and it is very good. I take it one day at a time..Its very hard when you eat for emotional reasons