[sad_sam]

hi everyone
this is my first time on here so just wanted to say hi and tell you about my situation (am havig a bad day today so ignore the rant!)
i am 19 and have always lived alone with my nan who is 68 we found out in february that she has terminal lung cancer and i have somehow become 1 of her main carers. touch wood she is doing okay at the moment (even though they only gave her 6months) but i am still finding it a bit difficult to cope.
i have got depression and am on medication for that. i have also been self-harming for a while and am (Hopefully) getting support with that through my doctor and a counsellor. i had been working part-time but have been signed off for 3 moths...am going back in 2 weeksand am SOOO scared about it. i just dont want to leave her. i hope that doesnt sound stupid.
has anyone else had any experiences with lung cancer that they are willing to share? because im willing to except help from anywhere at the moment!!
sam x x

[Rhapsody]

((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))

My grandmother died of cancer last year and it was hard watching her fade away.... for she was 83 years old and had never been sick a day in her life and her hair was still as jet black as ever.
She died at home with her kids, family and grandchildren.... this was her dying wish.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[sad_sam]

it is such a difficult thing to watch someone you love slowly slip away isn't it. i just feel like im not really up to the job of looking after her and that i am noot doing things right x x x

[Rhapsody]

YOU will do better than you know..... for I also took care my handicap daughter 95% of the time - from birth until she passed away at 10 years old (and) while I did struggled at times I gave her the best ten years of my life and my love.

......................................... always take BREAKS as needed.

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[sad_sam]

you sound like a brilliant person with a great amountof strength-i just dont feel that im up 2it x x

[Rhapsody]

IF YOU can........ go at IT as a Labor of LoVe - one labor you will enjoy! - over time

LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[desirae]

My Grandmother had pancreatic cancer, which was also terminal. Your story touches me and makes me a bit sad, because I was also 19, and watching her deteriorate. I also cared for her when I could, I was pregnant and already had a 1 year old...it was tough. It's a difficult situation, it's kind of like walking on a cloud in a dream, unreal almost. Reality don't completely set in till the day.

You have to do what you have to. You are an awesome young man...(I know I'm only a year older, just bear with me), but your doing the right thing. Your Grandmother probably appreciates and values everything you are doing for her in her time of need....that's truly heroic.

You have to make sure and take a night for you though. Forget woke, put Grandma aside, and take a few hours to think about yourself, have a few drinks, hang out with some friends...you know. That way this does not become overwhelming.

Eh, I know your pain to the T....I seriously do, and it's hard, very hard. But if I was able to get through it, I know you can too.

I'd also do some fun stuff with Grandma, whatever you can get her to do without wearing her out.......that way you don't feel guilty for anything.

When I look back I feel guilty for small things like not being able to take her anywhere she wanted....if I could turn back time I would have.

I hope you are feeling better today. Please take a breather, and let me know if you need anything.

I am sorry for all that you have to deal with right now, safe hugs if ok...I work as a caregiver to seniors, and my last client died recently of stage 4 lung cancer..they had given her 6 months, but she survived for 11..is there someone else coming in to help you? Is your nan on oxygen or a nebulizer yet? I hope that you are able to get time for yourself..you are very brave and strong..if you need anything to help with this, I am here listening..take gentle care..