What a wonderful morning! Well... it started last night... to be honest... When our son was going to bed... he said: "I don't want to live anymore! I can't do it anymore! I want to die!" I could see the fear and hurt in his blue eyes... His body all tense... I knew today probably would be rough. Boy was I ever right!!!
Struggling to get him to eat... playing all the trix there are in the book... to make things work out. Soooooo draining! Think, think, think! His dad was to take the kids to school this morning. Gustav threw himself down on the floor... refused to go... In some way I managed to get his shoes on... Tried to calm him down. Hubby got him and his sister outside the door... Our son was trying to get loose and was crying. They went down the stairs... to the buildings door. I looked out the window and saw our daughter walking away on her own. I just noooooooooooo..... I had to jump into a pair of trousers... my pyjama's t-shirt still on, to run downstairs and take care of our son. Hubby had to walk our daughter to school in time.
Our son was lying on the ground crying... I tried to rise him up... no use...
Two persons walked passed us... soooooooo embarrassing!
I tried to find something to talk about to catch my sons attention... you really have to think quick...using the exact right words... or else "the game" is over. You'd have to start all over again. He tried to run inside again... In some way I managed to get him walking... It was one tense walk to school... I can say! When we got there... I fetched his teacher... we sat down and talked to our son. So hard to reach him in that state of mind! Then he made a runner! Hubby ran after... Our son was in tears... Finally we got him into the class room. He got to play a Super Mario game on the computer to make him relax. Then his teacher had to hold him in a firm way so hubby and I could walk back home.
I really do hope the big meeting, with all persons involved- when it comes to our son- WILL BE SET VERY SOON! I feel torn apart, seeing my son suffering like this!!! I love him so much! My poor daughter having to be a part of this too!!! I love her! It feels like I'm having a block of concrete on my shoulders... walking on my knees. I'm the only one... who really knows how to handle our son... but my energy is running out! I'm about to fall into pieces!
I cried talking to a friend last night... because I have my own issues too to handle and... it's far too much.

If you only knew how much coming here getting support, means to me! I need you, guys!!!
I want to be there for you too in your sad hours! I just don't know how to, right now.

[katheryn]

i feel your pain as i read your post today
please just now we are here for you
and dont worry about what strangers think
if they cared they would of offered you a hand
instead of judgement in the stare

[therealme]

you have that concrete on you now
but it will fade given time
you may not see how
but somewhere down the line

your son needs your care
and your doing what is right
forget those people who stare
they probably had a good night

i hope the meeting helps you all
please remember we are here
just jump on msn and give us a call
you know we will be there

sometimes life can drag us down, but while carrying your woe's in these buckets, give a thought to those with no problem's ......., what a dull life they lead...

[JustAPixie]

((((((((((( Nina )))))))))))0

Reading your post broke my heart!!!!!!!!!

[Milanist]

Being a parent is hard, harder for some than others, but in any case hard! Im not a parent just yet as im only 21 but ive helped raise my cousins and know how it feels when they dont want to do something!
Ive had embarresing moments like trying to stop my cousine from letting himself go on the pavement, and crying for his mother while people starred at me!

Children are hard headed however i got a question to ask you. Did you ask your son what the problem is? why he is doing this? He may be young but these kids today have strong ideas!
Is it just because he misses his mom or maby something at school which is annoying him? Talk to your children sometimes it is something very small which is trobeling them!
(I am not saying that you do not talk to your children, this is not an offence in any way)

I remember my aunt making a pakt of some kind with my cousine, like if he goes to school she will buy him something he wanted (dont remember wat)! Try this you never know!

Anyway hope that the prob will be over soon! Good Luck!

Thank you for caring about me and my family!

Milanist... my son has Asperger's disorder. I do nothing else than ask him about what's troubling him and listens to him. It's a special need child... a very clever one though.

[bebop]

(((((NINA)))) I don't have words for you but can only give you hugs and know I am here for you!

[_skylin_]

((((((((HUGS))))))))
what an ordeel, bless yor hart. truth! pleez no tthat i am heer for you too. being new heer dos not diminissh my hope to encurage you.
saying prrayrs for you heer in cincy ohio USA and sendding mor hugs tthan you no.

sara

[wi_fighter]

Oh Nina, I wish I could take some of the struggle off your shoulders.

(((((((Nina))))))) I'm soooo sorry your son is having such a tough time right now and your having to go through it with him. Please let me know if there's anything I can do to help.

[Sarah116]

Yeah that sounds hard and emotionally distressing. I hope your son is doing okay. With your DH and great teachers it can really help!

[jacq10]

(((poetrylover)))) My heart aches for you. I know it doesnt mean much but i will be thinking of you and sending good vibes ... i hope that things get a little easier. hang in there.

Thank you so very much for your supportive words! They mean soooooooo much to me!

[kimmydawn]

Oh ((((((((((((((( nina )))))))))))))))))))) i can't imagine, but know that you're an extraordinary mama.

KD

[mrb020377]

(((((((((((nina)))))))))))))))))
forgive me for just seeing this post.
you must not feel bad for crying while talking to your friends.... that is what we are here for.... for you to cry on our shoulders when you dont know what else to do... sometimes crying is the only thing you can do.... i know you are frustrated and worn out..... i can sense it in your posts... i wish i could help! there isnt much i can do but listen and wipe your tears away as you cry.
i am here for you, ok? love ya

[froggie2]

ditto we are here for you. (((((hugs)))))